"Pill"

[lillita]

It's a vicious circle that you're caught up in
And you can't seem to escape,
No matter how hard you try
There's no breaking free from its grasp
Just temporary tantalizing escapes

Something that makes you forget the dark
Someone that says everything will be okay
And for a while you'll believe them.

But it sucks you back in;
Consuming you
Taking more of you every time

Yet, you'll put on a smile
In hopes that one day you'll mean it
That you can be happy again
No more medicine to define you
…Control you…
…Subdue you…

At night,
When you're alone,
It attacks
Latching its claws into you
Pulling you back

All of the doubt, anger, fear
And inescapable sadness
No one asks for that,
But you got it anyways
This unfailing, uncertain decent into madness

All you want is to be normal again
But it always comes down to that night
The night you knew it could never be the same again

Can you feel it?
The darkness as it creeps through your body
Changing you into something you can't stand
You'll pop a pill to numb the pain
It'll always be there
But you'll be numb

You're waiting to be rescued
But there's no one there that understands
So you'll be living through those little white pills
Until your body becomes as corrupt as your mind