"..Wake me up when September ends.."
Wow, this song is so great.
It is so fitting for what is going on right now.
Wake Me Up When September Ends..
I mean, I just want to fast forward through time.
Why has all this changed occured at once?
I sit on my bed in awe at all that has changed.
Friends have moved away, family has moved on;
all that is left to do is pick up the pieces and move on with my life.
It's crazy to think that we start school again in like a month.
I am sort of skeptical about then whole "going back to school" thing!
Honestly, I feel like I am starting a whole new life.
Let's start with the family,
My dad doesn't have a house.
Well, he has a home, but he can't live in it.
It looks like we built the top floor before we built the bottom.
It is rather interesting.
So, needless to say, he is living with his sister..
along with me grandparents.
It's pretty insane how things have changed.
Okay, so my grandparents(both my mom and my dad's parents)
lost their homes!
My mom's parents have already found a new home, which is a God-sent!
I think that it is great they have moved on.
I know that it is hard for my mom, considering the fact that was my mom's home that she grew up in!
I can't even imagine.
So, some people that moved away fed me some BS that they were going to call me all the time while they were gone!
What a lie!
Not one single call,
but hey, it's okay, I will always be here for that person incase they need me(as usual)!
I don't care about it.
Well I do care to an extent,
I know that doesn't really make sense, but it's the truth.
I wish that me and him could actually be friends and it wouldn't be weird!
I try to make it not weird, but there seems to be something that he isn't letting go!
Does that make sense?
But, who knows, I could just be making up stuff and he could really not stand me at all
and not even want to be around me and I am just oblivious to all of it.
It wouldn't be the first time that I thought something about someone and I was completly off!
I think that it's the fact that I just want answers to some questions that I have
and I just start making stuff up that sounds good to me!
What more can I do, right?
Of course, I am not mean to this person!
I think that this hurricane thing has stirred up so mant emotions!
It is weird that one thing happens and since there is so much change, I get emotional.
I think that it is just a "girl thing"!
I don't know though.
I have just been thinking about a whole lot these past few days.
Especially how weird it is going to be to go back to school.
With the time schedule that the "intelligent" school board members have set for us,
it's going to be hard to get into a habit!
I have been feeling like "it's whatever"!
That is my attitude towards so many things lately.
I know that I should have a better attitude,
but let's be honest..I am not a person that deals with everything around changing.
I fear change!
At least I am honest about it!
Life has just changed all at one time.
I think that is what is the hardest.
I kept telling my mom, "People aren't suppose to leave until we go off to college."
But instead of everyone leaving then, they are leaving right now!
It is so weird.
I just cried today in church.
I think that it was more because I hadn't been spending a whole lot of time focusing on the important things in my life...
such as God, close friends, and especially my family!
I have to start spending more "Lindsay Time" with myself.
I am going to go!
*After you throw the spear, you cannot catch the end of it!*
What a great quote!
I♥yOu!
†Lindsay Dawn†
It is so fitting for what is going on right now.
Wake Me Up When September Ends..
I mean, I just want to fast forward through time.
Why has all this changed occured at once?
I sit on my bed in awe at all that has changed.
Friends have moved away, family has moved on;
all that is left to do is pick up the pieces and move on with my life.
It's crazy to think that we start school again in like a month.
I am sort of skeptical about then whole "going back to school" thing!
Honestly, I feel like I am starting a whole new life.
Let's start with the family,
My dad doesn't have a house.
Well, he has a home, but he can't live in it.
It looks like we built the top floor before we built the bottom.
It is rather interesting.
So, needless to say, he is living with his sister..
along with me grandparents.
It's pretty insane how things have changed.
Okay, so my grandparents(both my mom and my dad's parents)
lost their homes!
My mom's parents have already found a new home, which is a God-sent!
I think that it is great they have moved on.
I know that it is hard for my mom, considering the fact that was my mom's home that she grew up in!
I can't even imagine.
So, some people that moved away fed me some BS that they were going to call me all the time while they were gone!
What a lie!
Not one single call,
but hey, it's okay, I will always be here for that person incase they need me(as usual)!
I don't care about it.
Well I do care to an extent,
I know that doesn't really make sense, but it's the truth.
I wish that me and him could actually be friends and it wouldn't be weird!
I try to make it not weird, but there seems to be something that he isn't letting go!
Does that make sense?
But, who knows, I could just be making up stuff and he could really not stand me at all
and not even want to be around me and I am just oblivious to all of it.
It wouldn't be the first time that I thought something about someone and I was completly off!
I think that it's the fact that I just want answers to some questions that I have
and I just start making stuff up that sounds good to me!
What more can I do, right?
Of course, I am not mean to this person!
I think that this hurricane thing has stirred up so mant emotions!
It is weird that one thing happens and since there is so much change, I get emotional.
I think that it is just a "girl thing"!
I don't know though.
I have just been thinking about a whole lot these past few days.
Especially how weird it is going to be to go back to school.
With the time schedule that the "intelligent" school board members have set for us,
it's going to be hard to get into a habit!
I have been feeling like "it's whatever"!
That is my attitude towards so many things lately.
I know that I should have a better attitude,
but let's be honest..I am not a person that deals with everything around changing.
I fear change!
At least I am honest about it!
Life has just changed all at one time.
I think that is what is the hardest.
I kept telling my mom, "People aren't suppose to leave until we go off to college."
But instead of everyone leaving then, they are leaving right now!
It is so weird.
I just cried today in church.
I think that it was more because I hadn't been spending a whole lot of time focusing on the important things in my life...
such as God, close friends, and especially my family!
I have to start spending more "Lindsay Time" with myself.
I am going to go!
*After you throw the spear, you cannot catch the end of it!*
What a great quote!
I♥yOu!
†Lindsay Dawn†