Poem: Devoid of life

[lilliant]

Devoid of life

This is a pain which expresses some of the feeling I can discern from my mothers condition. She is in so much pain with no idea what it is and she has some bad days and some better, but it has been an emotional time for us all.

Leave me to my pain and anger
Leave me to my weeping
Let me drown in my sorrow
Till my eyes are seeping

Let me cry till no tears are left
Till my voice is coarse
Let me while away my days
With my life off course

Do not talk of braveness
I will not hear your talk of hope
or taking it within ones stride
or dealing with ones pride

I cannot bare this world l live in
The pain is too hard to bear
I pray each day for god to take the pain away
For each day I cannot stand

Forever trapped within this racking body
Forever constrained to live
Confined to only my mind
With only my misery to meet

I wish for better times
I relive my happier days
Though bitterness spreads like darkling threads
All consuming in their stead

I cannot cope with the guilt I feel
For the trouble I have caused
I wish they would leave me be
So they would not see me hurting

I cannot bare to see them cry
Or to see them seeth in anger
For them to break and turn on me
Regret shining in their eyes and pity apon where I lie

Leave me to my pain and anger
Leave me to my weeping
Let me drown in my tears
Till no tears are left.