emotional advice
My little sister is going in to have major shoulder reconstruction surgery tomorrow and I'm really scared. She has had surgery's before, when she was 4 to remove her toncils and adnoids and when she was 7 to rebuild her left ear drum. But she's only 15 and I'm 7,000 miles away from her instead of living in the same house and I'm not handling it very well.
I know that she's scared and nervous because she refuses to talk to me about it, Katie doesn't deal with pain either emotional or physical well she just ignores it, always has, hence the need to rebuild her shoulder. An injury that would have grown men begging for drugs and she plays select basket ball and soccer without flinching. I've always been the basket case between the two of us but it balances out I freak out and want to talk about it and she tells me to shut up and that she can't think about it but at least I know that she knows that I'm there for her, worrying and scared in a way that she won't allow herself to be.
I know that your not supposed to think about the what if's of all the bad things that can happen in a surgery but today has been very hard. I did not do my self a service by deciding to catch up on season seven of Grey's Anatomy either. I know that a lot of you have had to deal with loved ones going under the knife regularly and I know that you understand. I just hate this hopeless feeling. I can't even hug my mom for comfort or most importantly hug my sister.
I'm sure everything will be fine, it's just upsetting and unsettling. If any of you have any advice besides eat my weight in Ben and jerry's (cause I already did that) then please share. I have already talked to my family earlier today but they are all busy and in good spirits just going about their day, trying not to really think about the bad stuff. It's just hard for me to ignore that when I'm so far from them and not busy at all.
I know that she's scared and nervous because she refuses to talk to me about it, Katie doesn't deal with pain either emotional or physical well she just ignores it, always has, hence the need to rebuild her shoulder. An injury that would have grown men begging for drugs and she plays select basket ball and soccer without flinching. I've always been the basket case between the two of us but it balances out I freak out and want to talk about it and she tells me to shut up and that she can't think about it but at least I know that she knows that I'm there for her, worrying and scared in a way that she won't allow herself to be.
I know that your not supposed to think about the what if's of all the bad things that can happen in a surgery but today has been very hard. I did not do my self a service by deciding to catch up on season seven of Grey's Anatomy either. I know that a lot of you have had to deal with loved ones going under the knife regularly and I know that you understand. I just hate this hopeless feeling. I can't even hug my mom for comfort or most importantly hug my sister.
I'm sure everything will be fine, it's just upsetting and unsettling. If any of you have any advice besides eat my weight in Ben and jerry's (cause I already did that) then please share. I have already talked to my family earlier today but they are all busy and in good spirits just going about their day, trying not to really think about the bad stuff. It's just hard for me to ignore that when I'm so far from them and not busy at all.