It's gonna be another bad month...
Today I find out if my dog has lupus. basically I find out if next time I go home if I will have a dog.
I basically hate life right now, I dont think people know how depressed I really am at this point in time. its ok I guess its better to fool the world
I've decided not to get my nose done and dont care to share why I've decided not to.
I want more then anything to be home right now
my love life was looking positive, now I just think that love is not for me
I'm so done working the play I'm working
I miss Branden,
I told my Dad that I think him and my mom fucked me up, he said he takes full blame
Someone I use to be really close to is starting to drift away
I'm holding back all my emotions which is bad cause at some point I'm just gonna explode
but I can't let them out right now I have too much going on in my life!
I have papers, quizzes, exams, a tech week comeing up, I cant catch a fucking break!
I dont think my birthday is gonna be acknowledged this year
I have strike the weekend before, a midterm the evening of it and after it (fucking online math class), and then Friday starts spring break so no one will be here however I might cause I think I might start tech for another show.
Remeber how a month ago I loved my job so everything was ok, well this should be my time off from work which is cool I get to breathe a bit sleep some etc then go back to it and still love it cause I got my nice little vacation well this time no break because I'm doing another show and because life decided to slap me in the face!
basically if I appear bitter or upset I am and I'm sory for my behavior just know that at some point in the near future I'm gonna have a break down and let all this out.
I basically hate life right now, I dont think people know how depressed I really am at this point in time. its ok I guess its better to fool the world
I've decided not to get my nose done and dont care to share why I've decided not to.
I want more then anything to be home right now
my love life was looking positive, now I just think that love is not for me
I'm so done working the play I'm working
I miss Branden,
I told my Dad that I think him and my mom fucked me up, he said he takes full blame
Someone I use to be really close to is starting to drift away
I'm holding back all my emotions which is bad cause at some point I'm just gonna explode
but I can't let them out right now I have too much going on in my life!
I have papers, quizzes, exams, a tech week comeing up, I cant catch a fucking break!
I dont think my birthday is gonna be acknowledged this year
I have strike the weekend before, a midterm the evening of it and after it (fucking online math class), and then Friday starts spring break so no one will be here however I might cause I think I might start tech for another show.
Remeber how a month ago I loved my job so everything was ok, well this should be my time off from work which is cool I get to breathe a bit sleep some etc then go back to it and still love it cause I got my nice little vacation well this time no break because I'm doing another show and because life decided to slap me in the face!
basically if I appear bitter or upset I am and I'm sory for my behavior just know that at some point in the near future I'm gonna have a break down and let all this out.