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[lilkb5752]

y do i drink. . it makes me feel so crappy. .o well its ok it was a fun time hehe. . today is god day. . it is also jennifers bday =). .happy birthday jenn!!!. . blah today is also my step mothers bday. .it sucks that she isn't around to see it but she is def in a better place right now. . i been thinkin about her a lot latly. .. i wonder if my life would be this way if she was here. . but u can neva look at the wat if's. .blah =/. . .i had work today 8-11. . so pointless but w/e i need the money. . today is god day guys hehe. .all i did was sleep. . when i got home i went right to bed and then i just woke up a lil while ago. . i was havin a weird dream. . it was about me havin babies. . not 1 not 2 but 3 babies. . it was crazy i didn't kno i was pregant until i had them. . but i don't memba havin them. . and i wasn't havin sex so i didn't kno who the dad was. . .but i didn't have any baby stuff at all and i had to use other people shit it was crappy. . but clark was the one who named all the babies but they were weird names.. jenn was supposta be the 2nd parent w/ me and help me out but she would always forget. . but i had 2 boys and a girl but the girl was really big like a 1 yr old. . .i was gonna give it away cause i couldn't handle it but jenn freaked out and was like no way i will help u and stuff. . .but then i had to go see my friend in the dream. .but i had to sneak away. . i could only take the 2 boys w. me cause i didn't have enough room in my car at all. . .i was so scared all i could think about was how much stuff i needed for these babies and how i didn't have any money no no1 would help me. ..i memba jenn would find my babysitters but on the days i didn't have work which was pointless lol.. man it was a crazy ass dream it was so real. .anyways blah i havn't even showered yet. . and i am supposta go out tonite lol. . i needa get my ass movin man lol..tomorrow i have work at 6 =/. . but i get to go out to eat w/ the driscolls tomorrow besides denny of course. .but thats ok i rather see his family lol they r betta people lol. . but i will talk to every1 lata love u's bye =)
<3~ash
ps
my friend thank u for the long talk last night and sry i was so drunk and i didn't mean to cry. . we needa chill u promised and lied to me again u poophead. . jk i understand no public seens