fuck denny driscoll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lilkb5752]

ok so u don't answer my calls. . .i leave u voice mails u neva call back. . .so i will bitch to u on my lj. . .i regret every fuckin min w/ u denny. . .i do understand that i was crazy about u hangin out w/ other girls but i do recall the day u asked me out me warnin u that i was a jealous person. . .and that when u were w/ me u were w/ me and only me no other girls what so eva. . .so its not like my actions caught u by surprise my friend. . i gave u fair warnin and that is the route u decided to take. . o and yes i made u cheat on me?. . .how is this so?. . .i wanna kno this one it might be a lil funny on what u have to say. . .when we first went out i thought we had the msot perfect relationship. . .and i was the fuckin happiest girl alive to have u. . .u promised me u wouldn't treat me like pat did and u did nothing but worse. . .i understand pat fucked up but at least he didn't cheat on me and still has the fuckin balls to be my friend unlike u. . .o but yes we neva had friendship right?. . .jsut to people who decided to make-out and go out. . .we skipped the whole friends part. . so y be friends now when we neva ahd it to begin w/ as u said to me be4. . i hate myself so much foreva lovin u. . .i stayed home from school cause i thought i would miss u to much. . memba the day u cried to me and begged me not to go away to school. . .ya so i did stay home for u and only u. . .big mistake. . .i hate myself so much for stayin here. . .cause all i wanna do is run from everyhing that seems to be the only thing that works these days. . .everywhere i go u r there. . .not in person but u r there. . .all i do is hear ur name and all i do is think about u which just makes it double shitier. . .cause u don't deserve the love i have for u. . .i which i could waste it on some1 else. . .cause there really is nothing special about u if u think about it. .. there was for the first 10 months but then u just changed. . .u did a complete 360 my friend. . .and u didn't change for the best u def changed for the worst. . .i wanna erase u from my mind. .like u have done so to me. . .i was a big part of ur life denny. ..i dunno how u could just shut me out like u did. . .i kno everything wasn't ur fault cause i def did a big share of fightin w/ u and i am so sry. .. if i could go back in time and fix all this i would. . .but i can't so if this is the way it has to be then so be it. . .yes don't get me wrong i want u in my life more than anything. .. but u will have no part of me and there is nothing i can do about that. . .i wish u and pat would both tell me what i did wrong. . .this way the next guy that comes around .. . i can fix wat i do wrong and be happy for a change in my life. . .sry i have said mean things about u latly. . i prolly dont mean them but i kno u don't speak highly of me. . .and i am sry i called ur girlfriend melissa a slut it was very wrong of me. .i don't really kno her and i shouldn't have talked shit but i was mad that she took the kid from me that i love w/ all my heart. ... denny u were a great kid don't get me wrong... but as jennifer carter would say a great KID . . .u r jsut a kid. . .u havn't grown up at all. . .and u need to. . .sry =/ . .not only did i loose u denny i lost everything else. . .both my best friends. . .all my friends i use to chill w/. .or that we use to chill w/ ... and as of now sean. . me and him became good friends and now i don't even have that .. the only one i really have is maggie. . .and i thank god for her everyday . . .u mean the world to me denny. .. and there isn't 1 day that goes by that i don't think of u. . .i kno i said i regret bein w/ u but i did give me a good year. . .and ur family did to. . .i love them all more than anything. . it sucks that i can't see them like i would like to but its all on u cause i have to work around u if i wanna see them. . .always worryin if ur gonna walk through the door and shit. . .i have reached the understandin that me and u will neva be together again. ..i don't eva wanna be w/ u again. . .but i want ur friendship at least den. .i wanna be able to talk to u and just chill and shit. . maybe one day u will some around and concider havin me back into ur life but at this rate the only thing i can really do is hope which prolly won't work but its always good to think it will. . keeps me lookin forward to something good that might happen in my life. . blah i kno u prolly won't even read this lol. . .u don't even kno i am alive nvm that i have a lj .. no1 knos . . but it was good to get all this out i needed it. .. i amsry for everything. . .and i love u poopface =(. . gross i hate myself so much.. .

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stop tryin to get w. my best friend . . .she knos how u r denny. . .and wants no part of u trust me . . .shes the smart one here. . .buh bye =)