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[lilkayzers]

I had a really terrible bad dream, wait no let me say nightmare, last night. Well, in my dream, I was at work and Jason was there. We had a new girl come in and Jason spent the whole day like talking and flirting with her. When she was leaving, Jason said hey kay lets hug in front of her and make her jealous, and then i was just like why? and he was like oh, I just have a crush on her, Its really no big deal kayleigh. I was like WhAT?? I had gotten really scared. And he was like don't worry nothing will happen with us, I'll just cheat on you. I got so upset I started hysterically crying. I flipped. I asked him, if wanted to break up and he said no, I asked him again and he said It's over Kayleigh. I felt even worse. It seemed so real. Then I told him how hurt I was and he told me that he didn't care. Then, I ended up going to some restruant type thing. I was sitting with trix, linds, and court. They were trying to make me feel better. I was still crying then. I saw jason there and he was sittin with some kid. And, they kept checking if i was looking at jason. Which, I really was, but they were telling him, that I was starring at the Guy behind him, which made him hate me worse. So , I left that place. I went home, and some kid came over to help me feel better, and he was talking to me, and I told him that me and Jason were fine before, he came over to watch a movie and promised to call me in the morning. The kid said that he'd talk to Jason for me. I was still crying. I then went to a club thing with my friends to try to feel better. That didn't work. I saw the girl there, and I tryed to confront her. She blew me off, and said she'd steal jason from me even though she didn't like him. I freaked out even more, and told her I'd beat her ass. I was going completely nuts. I then saw Jason again, and he said it was over for good. I was hysterically crying. I then woke up shaking. It all seemed so real. I was glad to know that it was a dream. but, it all still seemed to upset me. ah.. I hate really dreams like that.

Anyways, ah, its almost school time.. grr.. I feel like I'm not going to see Jay that much. But, our time together will just seem more valuable I guess. I love him soo much. I am completely in love with him. And i'm So happy. Its amazing.He means the world to me. I just wish I could be able to express my love to him, its to much to say. He came over this morning for a lil bit and we watched tv and made pasta bake, then he left for football. I went to the mall with trix, and got some stuff. Yah:-D then me n trix had to walk home in the rain. Well I mean, I guess it was a good expeirnce because when we drive we'll never have to do that again.Well, now I'm sittin here in sunless tanner, and my swimmsuit so I'm going to go. Love yah all !!
*~*Kayleigh*~*