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last night was my worst night of work there ever. it was even worse than last saturday when everyone was crying and passing out and bleh. i was really not myself again last night and i had alot of bitchy complaining tables about things that were so stupid. i had more calamari the last time i came, the oysters are too small, blah blah blah blah blah. i still made good tips but it was just so much bullshit that i didnt want to deal with. so by the time i was cut, i was so happy to go home.
so i went to give my money and stuff and get my tips from my nice manager (courtney). i went in and she was like are you okay and i was just like im fine. and she was like dear you cant lie to me i can see right through you. so we talked for like 20 minutes. and it felt so good to actually be able to talk to someone. i know she probably doesn't even care that much but it was just like eveyrthing got let off my shoulders. she even asked me about someone. and i was just like well they probably wont be coming to say hi very much anymore. and she was aw thats sad to hear. i really liked them and you both seemed happier around eachother. little does she know. it was so hard not to cry oh my gosh was it hard.
anyways... then i went to leave with steph and my cook friend had a surprise for me. so he asked me to come over to his car to get it. so me being the fucking idiot i am. i always try to see the good side of people. well he gives me a single red rose. and it was so pretty. and i was just like uhh thanks. its really pretty. and he pulled me closer to me and was like its like you. and i was just like uhh i really have to go. im going to a haunted house and im already late. good thing i'm good at coming up with lies right on the spot. yay carlie.
so he puled me even closer and tried to kiss me but i just kinda turned to the side and gave him a hug and tried to pull away. and i was just like okay i have to go. so he walks me over to my car and does the same thing AGAIN. and its really hard for me to say no to guys. i try to be subtle. but it wasnt working. so i finally opened my door and got in and was just like see you tomorrow bye. and he opened the door back up and tried to kiss me agian. and i almost started crying because i didnt know what to do. it was a bad dream that wouldnt go away or end. so i shut the door and drove away. and the ended my wonderful night of hell.
so now i get to go to work all night. he wont be there. so yay. only a 200 more til i get my ipod. woo. senior pics on friday. SAT on saturday. i'll write more later. tonight is going to be a really long night.
so i went to give my money and stuff and get my tips from my nice manager (courtney). i went in and she was like are you okay and i was just like im fine. and she was like dear you cant lie to me i can see right through you. so we talked for like 20 minutes. and it felt so good to actually be able to talk to someone. i know she probably doesn't even care that much but it was just like eveyrthing got let off my shoulders. she even asked me about someone. and i was just like well they probably wont be coming to say hi very much anymore. and she was aw thats sad to hear. i really liked them and you both seemed happier around eachother. little does she know. it was so hard not to cry oh my gosh was it hard.
anyways... then i went to leave with steph and my cook friend had a surprise for me. so he asked me to come over to his car to get it. so me being the fucking idiot i am. i always try to see the good side of people. well he gives me a single red rose. and it was so pretty. and i was just like uhh thanks. its really pretty. and he pulled me closer to me and was like its like you. and i was just like uhh i really have to go. im going to a haunted house and im already late. good thing i'm good at coming up with lies right on the spot. yay carlie.
so he puled me even closer and tried to kiss me but i just kinda turned to the side and gave him a hug and tried to pull away. and i was just like okay i have to go. so he walks me over to my car and does the same thing AGAIN. and its really hard for me to say no to guys. i try to be subtle. but it wasnt working. so i finally opened my door and got in and was just like see you tomorrow bye. and he opened the door back up and tried to kiss me agian. and i almost started crying because i didnt know what to do. it was a bad dream that wouldnt go away or end. so i shut the door and drove away. and the ended my wonderful night of hell.
so now i get to go to work all night. he wont be there. so yay. only a 200 more til i get my ipod. woo. senior pics on friday. SAT on saturday. i'll write more later. tonight is going to be a really long night.