i'm scared of being turned down. pathetic, i know.
welllll. lately i havent done anything. ive kinda stopped going to work.. and if i do bring myself to go... i go late. i have no ambition to get anything done. at all. i dont know. i dont know how im going to make it through a whole other year at the wonderful KHS. ive already started my applications to the schools i want to go to. i just need to take the SAT and ACT and send my scores and transcript. and hope for the best? lately i have been thinking about it and im starting to realize how much i need to try. this past year, i let my grades go way down... alot farther then i would of ever expected of myself. lol what if i cant get into any mediocre schools and i do end up going to tcc or something? not that they are bad or anything like that, but i always thought that i would go to some really good, hard to get accepted, expensive school. but i guess thats part of growing up. you realize that those dreams will never come true. they were just dreams. and thats all they will ever be. i want to get out of keller so bad. but i like keller. its not that bad. ok enough of that.
hmm. im taking care of boomer for a few days. bella has a playmate for a few days. yay. shes depressed. ever since i brought her to the vet shes been acting all sad like and sleeping all the time. shes never like this. i dont know whats wrong.
lol i havent been sleeping much lately. and last night at scotts apartment i finally got to sleep after we went swimming and clark woke me up and was like uhh time to go home. and we were walking down the stairs and i was sayign something and he was just liek you are being so grumpy and then i got in the car and fell like right back to sleep. it felt so good outside. i love being able to sleep in the car. normally i cant. then i got home and i had left my harry potter book at clarks... and i didnt have my car. so i was bored. but i fell asleep at like 2:45 so it was okay. thast pretty early for me.
this was really long. and really pointless. but its okay because i really dont care. goodnight.
Growing up isn't about getting older and more wise.
It's about unvieling the evil that you can't see when your young and ignorant...
hmm. im taking care of boomer for a few days. bella has a playmate for a few days. yay. shes depressed. ever since i brought her to the vet shes been acting all sad like and sleeping all the time. shes never like this. i dont know whats wrong.
lol i havent been sleeping much lately. and last night at scotts apartment i finally got to sleep after we went swimming and clark woke me up and was like uhh time to go home. and we were walking down the stairs and i was sayign something and he was just liek you are being so grumpy and then i got in the car and fell like right back to sleep. it felt so good outside. i love being able to sleep in the car. normally i cant. then i got home and i had left my harry potter book at clarks... and i didnt have my car. so i was bored. but i fell asleep at like 2:45 so it was okay. thast pretty early for me.
this was really long. and really pointless. but its okay because i really dont care. goodnight.
Growing up isn't about getting older and more wise.
It's about unvieling the evil that you can't see when your young and ignorant...