how do people know what's real?

[lilkae87]

soo i stopped tlaking to you for the longest time. and now we are talking as if we never stopped. we arent allowed to talk about anything that happened during the little break. lol. my mind is so eh. i feel liek such a stranger to my life. i used to be soo happy and nothing could bring me down. i never cried. i just kept it all in. and now its like im letting everything from the past 8 years out all at once. but theres no one there. there was someone. but they left, a long time ago. they say they are still here no matter what, but theres nothing. theres a smile. and look in your eye that i know oh too well.

have you ever dreamt something and then the next day you htink it relaly happened, so you ask someone about it and htey give you the "you are so fucking stupid" look. yeah... i got that one today. loooool. i need to get off this medicine.

i have oh so much history to read. i might go start on that now. <3