:/
i'm scared
scared to know the truth
and i wont know who to blame
:/
i guess tomorrow will tell me everything.
i love my bff and i'm jealous?
i'm happy for her. truly
just not so happy for myself.
weird.
i gotta get over it.
but its so hard.
i fell. and it's way ridiculous.
i shouldn't have took the chance.
he was heartbroken and i was just there to help him pick up the pieces. :/
i guess that's what i get...
maybe he'll come back?
but i won't get my hopes up.
he wants 2 date me but not exclusively.
:/
i guess thats fine.
& if one day he realizes that we havent talked in awhile
he'll remember its cos he pushed me away
so i'm mending relationships.
me and brooke are the first to be mended
thank god.
i hate not liking people, and i didn't really have a reason to NOT like her.
she's fuckin awesome. that's all i know.
heather. ungrounded. 2 weeks left i do believe.
omg. i miss her like no other.
we see eachother at school EVERYDAY but thats not enough.
my head hurts. along w/ my body.
pilates kicked my ass..MAJOR
valentines day is in one week.
looks like its another year w/out a valentine.
how fuking lame.
o well, i guess i got my lacey, steph, and tara.
maybe he'll come around by then?
but once again, i wont get my hopes up.
yay. it's getting back to the old times.
:)
that's another plus side.
she tries to cheer me up.
but it doesn't help.
i still miss him.
UGH
i gotta go to bed.
____♥
scared to know the truth
and i wont know who to blame
:/
i guess tomorrow will tell me everything.
i love my bff and i'm jealous?
i'm happy for her. truly
just not so happy for myself.
weird.
i gotta get over it.
but its so hard.
i fell. and it's way ridiculous.
i shouldn't have took the chance.
he was heartbroken and i was just there to help him pick up the pieces. :/
i guess that's what i get...
maybe he'll come back?
but i won't get my hopes up.
he wants 2 date me but not exclusively.
:/
i guess thats fine.
& if one day he realizes that we havent talked in awhile
he'll remember its cos he pushed me away
so i'm mending relationships.
me and brooke are the first to be mended
thank god.
i hate not liking people, and i didn't really have a reason to NOT like her.
she's fuckin awesome. that's all i know.
heather. ungrounded. 2 weeks left i do believe.
omg. i miss her like no other.
we see eachother at school EVERYDAY but thats not enough.
my head hurts. along w/ my body.
pilates kicked my ass..MAJOR
valentines day is in one week.
looks like its another year w/out a valentine.
how fuking lame.
o well, i guess i got my lacey, steph, and tara.
maybe he'll come around by then?
but once again, i wont get my hopes up.
yay. it's getting back to the old times.
:)
that's another plus side.
she tries to cheer me up.
but it doesn't help.
i still miss him.
UGH
i gotta go to bed.
____♥