Aug 09, 2005 23:16
today was some day! first i wake up and eat breakfast and then around 12:30 i leave to go to dentists and boy was that some trip! they rubbed "numbing" gum in the corner of my mouth. well it didnt numb anything but the surface of my mouth and they said i would feel a slight tingle. YEAH RIGHT! be honest to me damn it! it felt like i angered a hornets nest and the big bad queen stung me square in the face! and it was kinda cool poking my face an not feeling it you know? felt like i was petting a peice of tanned leather or something. kinda fun for a while and then it sux when u regain the feeling because for one.. your mouth is sore and 2 the feeling of numb is annoying. just like when your arm or foot goes to sleep and it feels like its all prickly and shit..
and i went over to the neighbor's house to take care of the dogs and mom refuses to shut up and leave me alone. every 5 minutes she comes back out and yells my name. i mean it's not like theres any difference if im right next door. theres a possibility of death when im at gordon's house or at central park.. does she call every 5 minutes then? no so why should she walk outside to bug the shit out of me? love her but it's no fun when she can't leave me alone. i mean take this in another example.. we had dinner tonight and i was with my plate digging out some mashed potatoes and she was like "the first pot is gravy and the second pot is potatoes" she was looking straight at me too.. like seriously people.. im not a crippled! i can see for myself and im not a dumbass i know what potatoes look like and taste like.. and i know what gravy is and i dont need to be told it's right under my chin. it's just one of those things that i hate when someone says something like that, like im some kind of a useless crippled. i dont like depending on others for my own duties. i'd much rather die for my own mistake than live knowing someone else fuked my life forever.
so i was taking my dogs over to the neighbor's today and bella jumped into the deep side of the pool and couldnt get out on her own and when i helped her she squeeled so i let her back down and then she just stayed there with her arms shaking. it was hard to see that happening and i kept calling her over to the shallow end but she didnt know and so i got on my belly and reached under her and tried to lift her out but she was too heavy. so i lefted her up with her hind legs and she got out and her legs started bleeding and i was kinda scared of her but she didnt seem to care. so i cleaned up and she stopped bleeding after 15 minutes then she chased after the dog and her wound opened again. it was kinda bad looking at her feet like that. i was probly more hurt than she was lol then al my other dog..that little shit! he ran away while i gave attention to bella and mom kept screaming out my name and she told me al ran away and that i had to go get him. well i had to cage up the other dog before i could go. so i was trying to caught the little goofball while mom continues to scream at me and then she finaly leaves me to catch the dog while she goes herself. it was quite a moment for me. and darius's friend was going to move tomorrow not today and im supposed to be home for a family thing so i'll see how things go tomorrow.
we were supposed to watch a movie today too but see how that goes huh? yeah our family is never co-ordinated.. we never sit down at the dinner table at the same time and if we do it's a pretty amazing thing but the last time it happened before today was.. christmas of last year.. sux how that works you know? i mean i've eaten dinner at dinner tables more times with my friends' families than i have with my own. we used to have family get-togethers and discuss problems and fix them and i kept trying to continue it but mom got busier and dad became manager and then darius became a teen and did what most of what teens do. it's pretty much been that way ever since. then ben my cousin came over for 2 years and he became my best buddy and my parents' burden. he was driving the car i own now and he thrashed it up pretty badly.. not to mention he took some of the things from my parents as well but being as i was 10 at the time i just cared about having fun with someone like him. he moved away after that and i came to pinevalley middle school.. probly the worst 3 years of my life. i met very few new friends every year but i was once the strongest kid in school. it only lasted so long though..high school came around and everyone grew bigger than me and i grew a little bit more in 6th grade and a little more in 7th grade but i stopped after that. completely stopped growing height but it's fine i doubt i'd grow anymore but this height is perfect for me. knowing shorter you are the better center of gravity you have to do acrobatics and stuff. but after middle school everyone out grew me and i just stopped excersizing everyday for about a year and then i got into doing something really really hard.. handstands. i did it for about 1 3/4 years now but when i started i had no flexibility at all so about 6 months of it was stretching my muscles to be able to go that far. so when i was in high school as a freshman i didnt know much of what was going on cuz i was still figuring out things in my personal life, i mean i still had a speech impediment and a slow language processing. hearing someone speak english was as if i was still 7 years old.. wasnt really that perfect like everyone else theres a story behind that but not right now.. so sophmore was alright.. nothing went wrong nothing was terrible just a regular life for a while but junior year.. OMG! that was the most crammed-with-drama year i've ever had but not to mention the best year i ever had too. it all started with a vacation to ohio to see my aunts. i always had a problem being quiet around everyone but this year it changed a lot. i mean i dont know what happened.. i just started talking to my aunts like there was nothing wrong with me. i had chats with people at the camp fire from 8 pm at night to 5am in the morning. i did nothing but talk and chat with my relatives and that was the first visit i ever learned a damn thing about them too.. it was really cool being there. and after that i just started to talk more and by the time school came around i made more friends the first month then i did with the other years over the entire year. slowly i made more and more friends and developed a social life. and then came a thing called myspace. i didnt bother with it cuz it was stupid at first but my bro made me an account anyway and so i just kept it for 3 months. never touched it but then when it was about january when i quit my job at quiznos i met a girl. i did some chatting every once in a while then we chatted on AIM and then next thing u know it.. i meet her in person. hella weird.. and i met some other friends of hers too that i would meet couple more times after that.. and the guy i met would think i was kinda ugly in a way with the long hair and all i wasnt that great looking but when i made the hair cut. my life changed. ALL my friends i ever knew had to say something about my hair cut. even someone i didnt know existed in my chem class said something to me. i felt a lot like a king for a good week or so. and then i started to dress better and more fashionable and stuff. i started noticing people all around me were looking at me because i was looking good. i never had that experience but it was nice. and then when i went to a friends house and met my 3rd GF it was all of a sudden pure drama. 3 girls liked me and 2 of them were willing to destroy their friendships for me. i didnt want any part of it but i was the reason for it. it was the first time in my life i had to make a decision that would hurt someone. it and i inevitably got 4 people to bitch me out and later of course that would heal and break down again but things happen sometimes. i no longer talk to my 3rd GF and probly never will. but that week to me is what i called "drama week" it was 8 days of shit. people were talking shit to eachother i was thinking about it every second of the day and i got lower scores on my tests and didnt do my homework and nothing was going right but i learned a lot from it. and onetime i would hang out with my friends from danville and when they went home i got an IM from one of their sisters and i was told to stay away from her. and i was curious why they wanted me to stay away.. so i kept talking and i enjoyed it and one day i would meet her at a soccer game at Cal high. i would go on meeting her a couple more times at different places. after i broke up with my GF i would go on to making more friends and resuming normal life for a while. then i would get out of school and go to taiwan and loose weight. gaining more stamina and lasting longer on runs and being able to lift myself up with ease. then came my bro from taiwan a few weeks ago. making me feel not as much alone but still somewhat the same. and now i'm looking for a job and still living life day by day. so i pretty much told u a short and general review of my life. enjoy it and goodnight