*he's perfect but he's gonna be leaving*
ok well... i met this guy... ummm actually i havent met him yet. lol. we've just been talkin for the past few weeks or so. it's needless to say but i like him quite a bit and i THINK he likes me some too... but im not at all positive about that. anyway... he enlisted in the national guard yesterday and i found out today that he leaves for boot-camp in april n then comes back in august... sounds good cuz he doesnt leave for a couple months right? well yeah its good but... what am i gonna do when april rolls around and i like him even more than i do right now? or if we've started actually seeing each other n stuff and he has to leave? i mean thats just gonna suck... so idk if its a good thing to just take a step back (not just for my own sake but his too) and just stay friends in hopes that maybe it'll work out when he gets back from boot-camp or if i should just say screw it and just keep doin whatever it is we're doin right now hoping that it wont shatter my heart when he actually does leave (assuming this were to work out). i just dont know what to do or what to say once i do figure out what i wanna do. part of me is saying, "hey idiot! he's amazing! and ur gonna just let him slip away? thats just stupid!" and the other part of me is saying, "save it til he comes home so u dont get ur heart broken for the millionth time. if its meant to be it will work out in the end anyway!".. somebody PLEASE give me some feedback on this... i can use all the help i can get! love y'all! ~Erica~