the future's uncertain and the end is always near
i wonder why i have such bad luck sometimes....well maybe it isn't bad luck so much as i have bad timing. i always fall in or out of love at all the wrong moments, either too soon or too late. or when i finally do find love, find happiness and stability, something comes along to fuck it up.
i'd like to think that everything is going to be ok in the future, and that everything will work out for the best. I don't want to be that person who plans her life out to every last detail...i'd like to just live it like it was meant to be lived. but i get so worried that things just won't work out. i don't know why i worry so much.
i finally found someone i like a lot and i thought liked me back. then this whole "ex factor" came up and now i feel more uncertain than ever. and i wonder if i should be true to myself, and say that my dignity is more important than finding true love. or should i throw my inhibitions to the wind and just let myself go, regardless of how i could be hurt in the end? which is the better path to take? i keep thinking of that sex and the city episode where Samantha breaks up with Richard the second time...she pulled her biggest bet off the table...her heart. it's clear to me now that i put my heart on the table and i don't know if i should gamble it or pull it away.
i just don't know the answers and i don't think anybody does.
if i had a crystal ball, would i really look to the future to see what would happen to me?
i'd like to think that everything is going to be ok in the future, and that everything will work out for the best. I don't want to be that person who plans her life out to every last detail...i'd like to just live it like it was meant to be lived. but i get so worried that things just won't work out. i don't know why i worry so much.
i finally found someone i like a lot and i thought liked me back. then this whole "ex factor" came up and now i feel more uncertain than ever. and i wonder if i should be true to myself, and say that my dignity is more important than finding true love. or should i throw my inhibitions to the wind and just let myself go, regardless of how i could be hurt in the end? which is the better path to take? i keep thinking of that sex and the city episode where Samantha breaks up with Richard the second time...she pulled her biggest bet off the table...her heart. it's clear to me now that i put my heart on the table and i don't know if i should gamble it or pull it away.
i just don't know the answers and i don't think anybody does.
if i had a crystal ball, would i really look to the future to see what would happen to me?