got a strong urge to fly. but i got nowhere to fly to.
Today was... interesting. I find myself sprinting home from school and completly abandoning all the things i used to care about. my only goals lately have been napping, writing, and piano. when things changed, i haven't a clue. Just drifting from class to class, dodging as many oppurtunities and would-be difficulties; always taking the easy way out. Like today, I had this philosophy project (which i've known about for weeks) and of course, I wait until the absolute LAST minute to touch it.. literally last minute. the period before the class, to be exact. and our project was this terrible budget unedited movie. and i groaned and pitied myself so much, when in reality i totally brought the embaressing situation on myself.. I dunno. I just keep thinking about that. plus, dissapointing Broggy is like upsetting a huge teddy bear...
So many things have changed this year. the thoughts that have been filling up my head, my outlooks on things, and especially my relationships with people. many friendships i used to -and still- value so much have completely disintegrated. just walking down the horrible corridors of our school, seeing the faces i used to know how to react to... no longer knowing what to do. the ackwardness.. it just makes me so sad. bleh i dunno, i was just confronted with this 9430930 harsh times today, or maybe i'm just in a nostalgic mood.
On a lighter note, i'm comfy and warm and Completely stuffed with those little chocolate Jack Daniels bottles, and it's snowing outside. and Dave Brubeck enlightens me with a little jazz piano. and my sister is playing videogames next to me. and the old man Les is reading his million page old book by the fire.
things in my life, and my head, are so fucked up it seems right now. but it's nice to have perfect scenerios like this.. once and awhile...
So many things have changed this year. the thoughts that have been filling up my head, my outlooks on things, and especially my relationships with people. many friendships i used to -and still- value so much have completely disintegrated. just walking down the horrible corridors of our school, seeing the faces i used to know how to react to... no longer knowing what to do. the ackwardness.. it just makes me so sad. bleh i dunno, i was just confronted with this 9430930 harsh times today, or maybe i'm just in a nostalgic mood.
On a lighter note, i'm comfy and warm and Completely stuffed with those little chocolate Jack Daniels bottles, and it's snowing outside. and Dave Brubeck enlightens me with a little jazz piano. and my sister is playing videogames next to me. and the old man Les is reading his million page old book by the fire.
things in my life, and my head, are so fucked up it seems right now. but it's nice to have perfect scenerios like this.. once and awhile...