Today's pregnancy and being alone reality
OK so here is today's facts about being alone and pregnant. While I love my freedom and being alone and the ability to do what I want when I want without having to check in or with another person, being pregnant alone at this stage (23 weeks) is not so desirable.
First off I am feeling the weight of the baby in me. Secondly I am feeling very tired alot but yet unable to sleep for long enough periods of time to catch up. I'm still only able to do 3-4 hours at a time. And while there are about 17 weeks before the baby is due, I have so many things to do that must be done in a timely manner.
For example, after spending so much time emptying out the baby's room and storing stuff in my Spiritual Room. Finally after a long drama of trying to get my new floors down, they are complete. Yet the Spiritual Room has so many boxes of storage stuff in it that has to be reorganized and out of that room. I have a meeting this sunday in that room and with it being full to the brim with stuff, I tried to organize that room. However the boxes are very heavy and as a pregnant person I cannot move those heavy boxes right now.
So Tuesday I went out and got a book case to put my books. Step one is to empty out as many boxes as I can. I have 3 boxes of books that can get emptied out if I can put them in the new book case. The problem is, the new book case is very heavy and I can't put it together myself. I had a friend who always promised to help me when ever I needed it and would yell at me for not using him for things. So when this came up I asked him twice to help me and, of course, he's too busy to help me.
Again if it wasn't such an issue with time, it may not annoy me much but I am on a time table. I can't organize that room, till its cleared out. So I spent the past 3 hours moving the heavy boxes from one room to another, so that I can get at the storage bins which have my books. I guess if no one can help me put the book case together, I will have to do it myself.
This is where pregnancy sucks and being alone sucks and not having help when I need it sucks. This is when my "I can do it belief system and attitude" really end up hurting me. Now its very hard for me to ask for help, but when I do, I really need it. And this week I really need help with that room and the book case plus the other storage bins.
It seems the more I do, the more I have to do and the less time it has to be done in.
I guess tonight I am feeling overwhelmed by things. I'm tired, out of breath, cranky and annoyed at all that has to be done with the short amount of time that it needs to be done in.
First off I am feeling the weight of the baby in me. Secondly I am feeling very tired alot but yet unable to sleep for long enough periods of time to catch up. I'm still only able to do 3-4 hours at a time. And while there are about 17 weeks before the baby is due, I have so many things to do that must be done in a timely manner.
For example, after spending so much time emptying out the baby's room and storing stuff in my Spiritual Room. Finally after a long drama of trying to get my new floors down, they are complete. Yet the Spiritual Room has so many boxes of storage stuff in it that has to be reorganized and out of that room. I have a meeting this sunday in that room and with it being full to the brim with stuff, I tried to organize that room. However the boxes are very heavy and as a pregnant person I cannot move those heavy boxes right now.
So Tuesday I went out and got a book case to put my books. Step one is to empty out as many boxes as I can. I have 3 boxes of books that can get emptied out if I can put them in the new book case. The problem is, the new book case is very heavy and I can't put it together myself. I had a friend who always promised to help me when ever I needed it and would yell at me for not using him for things. So when this came up I asked him twice to help me and, of course, he's too busy to help me.
Again if it wasn't such an issue with time, it may not annoy me much but I am on a time table. I can't organize that room, till its cleared out. So I spent the past 3 hours moving the heavy boxes from one room to another, so that I can get at the storage bins which have my books. I guess if no one can help me put the book case together, I will have to do it myself.
This is where pregnancy sucks and being alone sucks and not having help when I need it sucks. This is when my "I can do it belief system and attitude" really end up hurting me. Now its very hard for me to ask for help, but when I do, I really need it. And this week I really need help with that room and the book case plus the other storage bins.
It seems the more I do, the more I have to do and the less time it has to be done in.
I guess tonight I am feeling overwhelmed by things. I'm tired, out of breath, cranky and annoyed at all that has to be done with the short amount of time that it needs to be done in.