drama warning!
I didn't decide until last Wednesday that going to Birka was even an option, but once the ball was rolling, I then spent the rest of the week preparing for potential drama that (thankfully) didn't happen. The upshot of this is that I find myself well-steeled and in a mood to be able to handle sticking my hand in the crazy, so just now I went through the folder where all his drivel gets sent without me having to know it's there until I'm good and ready, and I actually read some of it.
Dear. Freaking. Gods.
I'm so thankful I got away from him. His perception is soo far away from reality that it's amusing and disturbing at the same time. He gloats about things he's done since I dumped him, as if I care (I stopped reading his journal when the judge suggested we both do so because his life no longer matters to me, so why would I want emails about it?), he lectures me on being a good person (as if he really knows anything about the subject), and he insults me as often as he can, under the guise of being the wise one (I just about fell over laughing while typing that).
It boggles my mind that he thinks I want to read any of this. As he himself points out, it's been TWO YEARS since I dumped his abusive ass, and long past the time where either of us should care what the other is up to. I can't understand how the girl he claims to love can be okay with him still being so obviously obsessed with an ex, but then, he's very good at making completely batshit crazy things sound perfectly sane and rational, especially if one is predisposed to believe him.
He's just so wrong about so many things, and then builds entire essays worth of ranting on these flawed assumptions, that it's almost comical. It's kind of like when I was apartment hunting and sat down with a potential landlord who spent an hour explaining to me how the contrails left by passenger jets were full of poison that was destroying our crops because Big Oil wanted us all to die. It's that level of crazy.
But the biggest thing that confuses me is why he keeps sending me these emails in the first place. I usually don't read them, and now with the filters set up, I don't even notice when they arrive, so... what's the point? (For the slower brains in the audience, that's a rhetorical question. Its purpose is to indicate the futility of further attempts at communication, not to invite them.)
I think that instead of sending emails to the archive, I may just start sending them directly to trash or spam, so I won't even have the option of reading like I've done today. Camelot is, after all, a silly place.
Dear. Freaking. Gods.
I'm so thankful I got away from him. His perception is soo far away from reality that it's amusing and disturbing at the same time. He gloats about things he's done since I dumped him, as if I care (I stopped reading his journal when the judge suggested we both do so because his life no longer matters to me, so why would I want emails about it?), he lectures me on being a good person (as if he really knows anything about the subject), and he insults me as often as he can, under the guise of being the wise one (I just about fell over laughing while typing that).
It boggles my mind that he thinks I want to read any of this. As he himself points out, it's been TWO YEARS since I dumped his abusive ass, and long past the time where either of us should care what the other is up to. I can't understand how the girl he claims to love can be okay with him still being so obviously obsessed with an ex, but then, he's very good at making completely batshit crazy things sound perfectly sane and rational, especially if one is predisposed to believe him.
He's just so wrong about so many things, and then builds entire essays worth of ranting on these flawed assumptions, that it's almost comical. It's kind of like when I was apartment hunting and sat down with a potential landlord who spent an hour explaining to me how the contrails left by passenger jets were full of poison that was destroying our crops because Big Oil wanted us all to die. It's that level of crazy.
But the biggest thing that confuses me is why he keeps sending me these emails in the first place. I usually don't read them, and now with the filters set up, I don't even notice when they arrive, so... what's the point? (For the slower brains in the audience, that's a rhetorical question. Its purpose is to indicate the futility of further attempts at communication, not to invite them.)
I think that instead of sending emails to the archive, I may just start sending them directly to trash or spam, so I won't even have the option of reading like I've done today. Camelot is, after all, a silly place.