season finale

[lilila]

well, he was playing games
i let him have another shot
and he missed by a mile
the worst part is, 
i saw it coming 
i expected it... 
how disappointing, 
to expect disappointment.
i still miss matt.
i miss that we never had 
the chance to hate each other
so that this could be easier.
because i'm sure to him, 
it was nothing.
i rely on myself and myself alone
and i'm fully aware of how 
unreliable i can be.
i never expected this change so 
quickly
but it's still disappointing.
today there's a fire inside of me
burning not to fizzle out.
today there's a fire
burning out my insides.