sleep, where art thou?
It's one of those nights when it feels impossible to fall asleep. Everyone s either snoring or talking way too loud in their sleep, cars are roaring past outside my window and it's so light outside it's practically morning. The sun will be up in a hour. Oh dear.
I really envy people who can fall asleep on command, sleep through everything and get up early in the morning. I can do all that, sure, but with varying results and at different occasions. Nothing is ever consistent when it comes to my sleeping pattern. One night I can drop at ten, feeling like i can't keep my eyes open for a minute longer, and the next I can stay up to half past five without even yawning. I sometimes wonder how I came to be, and how I can possibly function as a human being.
I have officially been accepted for the two week military camp at the end of august. I am very happy about this. Even more happy than I dare to show the people around me, actually. It will be a break from everything I know, and a possible stepping stone for something new and exciting. I want to escape this dreary, slow reality that I have somehow got stuck in. And I am not interested in doing it the traditional way of getting a nine-to-five-job and move to another city (where I will just get stuck all over again). That just wouldn't be me.
I think I'll crawl back to bed, hug my dog and just listen to some music. I'll fall asleep eventually, right?
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I really envy people who can fall asleep on command, sleep through everything and get up early in the morning. I can do all that, sure, but with varying results and at different occasions. Nothing is ever consistent when it comes to my sleeping pattern. One night I can drop at ten, feeling like i can't keep my eyes open for a minute longer, and the next I can stay up to half past five without even yawning. I sometimes wonder how I came to be, and how I can possibly function as a human being.
I have officially been accepted for the two week military camp at the end of august. I am very happy about this. Even more happy than I dare to show the people around me, actually. It will be a break from everything I know, and a possible stepping stone for something new and exciting. I want to escape this dreary, slow reality that I have somehow got stuck in. And I am not interested in doing it the traditional way of getting a nine-to-five-job and move to another city (where I will just get stuck all over again). That just wouldn't be me.
I think I'll crawl back to bed, hug my dog and just listen to some music. I'll fall asleep eventually, right?
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