my little light
the bright light in my life, my little jack, is gone. and everything in and around my house reminds me of him. sunday afternoon he was hit by a car in front of my house. the neighbors down the street thought it was their cat until my neighbor donna said it was ours. we went down the street to the backyard where they put him in a box. josh wouldn't let me look, but he had to. i walked away as soon as he said it was him and i cried. i feel like i haven't stopped since. everywhere i turn i expect to see him and he's just not there. when i go in the bathroom, he doesn't jump on the sink or push open the door, when i go in the bedroom, he's not in the window or sprawled out on the bed. when i go to sleep, he's not trying to sleep between us. he'll never play with aeneas again or torment izzi when izzi would rather be outside. i'm thankful for the rain every day since sunday, partly because i can't stand to feel the sunlight on my skin when the sun in my heart is so dark right now, and partly because i get to keep izzi inside most of the day. i know he's used to be an outdoor cat where jack wasn't, but i'm so afraid to lose him too. my izzi and jack are the best cats ever. i miss jack so much. my house is so empty. we buried him in the back yard and put flowers over him, and every time i see it i can't help but cry again. josh's heart is broken, and so is mine. he was our little buddy and our lives will just never be the same without him. i know there will never be another kitty like him. =/ love you jack.