Did Someone Mention a Soap Opera?

[lilicea]

Excuse my language, but I think the shit has hit the fan. Ok, where to even begin with this night?!?! I hung out with John for a big part of it, I've been doing some stuff I shouldn't have been doing lately, and I know it. I wanted attention, there I said it. Mostly I'm talking about what I've been smoking. But for those of you who didn't know it, there's another card on the table. You guys are awesome friends, but sometimes I just need to not think about everything, and that's what I was doing. Sam, I wasn't "plotting" to steal John from you or anything. It actually just kind of happened. And I won't say I regret it, cause I don't know if I do. All I know, first and foremost, is that he is one of the best friends I have. I won't stop talking to him, or flirting with him, because I get tired of people telling me how to live. Don't worry, for all who didn't know, I start counseling again on Wednesday. Yay for me. Ok, what else can I come clean about? Hmm....did my smoking habits and my relationships...wait, I'm not finished with that part yet! Ok, I won't go too into detail, but I've recently found out someone I really really liked, well, liked me back. That added another factor into this. I'm just waiting til Monday to talk that one out. That really caught me off gaurd! Right now, I have a lot of thinking to do, but wanna know the most valuable advice I've ever gotten?
"It's not the end of the world."
If anyone wants to actually talk to me about this, instead of jumping to conclusions, I wasn't adult enought to do so when we were doing this, but I'm facing up for my mistakes earlier, and I'm adult enough to do it now. This.....fiasco will probably piss many people off, but I can't fix that right now. So until then, think you're own thoughts, and try to remember that everyone has them.