june topic wonderwall
She thinks Tyler is the most beautiful and innocent person she has ever met. His eyes are so trusting. His smile is so genuine. His hands are so soft, yet they make her feel safe when he holds on to her. Tyler is unlike anyone she has ever met before. He is good and she thinks maybe he has no idea that she is not. She is pretty sure that Aidan never saw who she really was under all that dark hair, blue eyes and freckles. Delicate features that gave the illusion that she was such a good girl.
She wants to be a good girl though. She wants to be a good girlfriend. She wants to be worthy of Tyler's affection and devotion. Sometimes she thinks maybe she has a chance of becoming that girl. That she will be able to rise above the darkness that is buried just beneath the surface and grow up to be someone good. Maybe she will be like Buffy. Did Buffy ever feel so twisted and conflicted like Lily feels? They are slayers. They are created to be instruments of justice. They are weapons. They are killers. How can they be lightness and sweetness when they are surrounded in darkness? She looks at Tyler and she thinks if anyone can save her from the dark it will be him.
She wants to be a good girl though. She wants to be a good girlfriend. She wants to be worthy of Tyler's affection and devotion. Sometimes she thinks maybe she has a chance of becoming that girl. That she will be able to rise above the darkness that is buried just beneath the surface and grow up to be someone good. Maybe she will be like Buffy. Did Buffy ever feel so twisted and conflicted like Lily feels? They are slayers. They are created to be instruments of justice. They are weapons. They are killers. How can they be lightness and sweetness when they are surrounded in darkness? She looks at Tyler and she thinks if anyone can save her from the dark it will be him.