i am so sick...
of being confused...
i hate it...
i'm driving myself nuts and i can't stand it...
i'm so mean to him and i don't want to be...i guess it's because i feel like i have to push him away or i'm going to get hurt again... and i really don't want to go through that again...
so i say mean things and do mean things because i'm crazy and i think of things and they make me mad...not that they really happend but i still get mad...and i get jealous and i question everything...and i don't want to anymore...
i want to believe that you love me and are only with me and no one else and would never do that...but at the same time i can't believe that cuz i've been hurt too many times...
GOD I NEED HELP!!!!!
cuz no matter what u say or do...part of me will never believe you...
and i think that is why i'm going to end up alone...
i hate it...
i'm driving myself nuts and i can't stand it...
i'm so mean to him and i don't want to be...i guess it's because i feel like i have to push him away or i'm going to get hurt again... and i really don't want to go through that again...
so i say mean things and do mean things because i'm crazy and i think of things and they make me mad...not that they really happend but i still get mad...and i get jealous and i question everything...and i don't want to anymore...
i want to believe that you love me and are only with me and no one else and would never do that...but at the same time i can't believe that cuz i've been hurt too many times...
GOD I NEED HELP!!!!!
cuz no matter what u say or do...part of me will never believe you...
and i think that is why i'm going to end up alone...