Today
Today was tough on me. Woke up didnt want to get out of bed. But I knew I had to go to work. I got up went into work. They were nagging about my piercing again. I just wanted to tell them to leave me alone, but i put my hair back down and covered it. After a few boring hours i got a txt from miguel asking if i wanted mexican or a blooming onion. Because of my not so see food diet, i cant have either. Than he asked about chocolate chip cookies or a lollipop, but once again cant have it. Than he asked about fruit, and i said sure. he sent one back saying that it was on its way. I was standing in the back of concession when this lady with a baloon/basket walked in the door. I was like well it cant be mine, its not my birthday. We were all like who the heck can that be for? On the radio I head something someone come to guest services, i was like who did he say? so i asked him to repeat it, so he said my name!! I was like whoa me?? I'd never been sent anything before..I walked up there, and i signed for it and everyone was like who is it from?? I read the tag and I knew it was from miguel. He sent it to me trying to cheer me up because of my grandfather. It worked tho. It had hello kitty on it and everything! A fruit arrangement from ediable arrangements. Than i took it to the back and cleared room in the fridge. Than I called him and i started to cry on the phone. I finally stopped crying after he asked me to. I was excited that it was for me. I still cant believe he did that. It's so sweet of him. After I got off the phone I went back to work. Coorprate was there today, joy..Looking at ways to improve our theatre. Im not sure we really can but anyways. I went to walmart when I got home, got a card for my dad and grandma. Than I started to write what I wanted said at the funeral. My dad agreed that he would say it for me. I've been in constant contact with my cousin Todd. He is really upset over this too. At least I know Im not alone in this. Im trying to slowly open up and talk about it. Writing that thing tonight helped a lot, also going through the pictures. I printed out a few that I liked that had him in it. But I also cleaned out turtles tank tonight. It needed to be done. But thats all i've done for the day. Maybe take a bath and just relax a little. Im just really wanting to try that...