I dont feel like it..
Today at noon we got the phone call that my grandfathers kidneys shut down...we had all been expecting this for some time now, but I didnt think it was this soon. I yelled at my mom about something stupid and she walked out and i just started to cry uncontrollably, she came back in and calmed me down made me stop crying. We just lost my great aunt last october. I may not even be going to his funeral, and i didnt go to hers either. I wanted to just stay home and just sit there, but my mom convinced me that it wouldnt do anything for me. I went to hang out with miguel. He helped me alot tonight. Taking my mind off of it. He held me for awhile which made me feel safe for a little bit. Made me smile and laugh which wasnt really that easy to do. For dinner tonight we made "blue chicken" Which i call pollo azul. It turned out really good, just needed more cheeeeeeese!! Than we went to play DDR at gameworks. I had like very little to no energy for that. I dont really know why but i did sweat more than normal. But now I guess we just wait for the phone call...