Broken can be fixed.
I have writers block. It's not that I don't have anything to write about. There's plenty to write about! My brain is just mush right now. There's so much going on in there and so little to keep track of until school starts. My internal filing cabinets have failed me and my recycling bin is full. The connection between my right and left brain is malfunctioning and instead of jumping back and forth as easily as it usually does like with my thought-process-ADD its just......sitting there. Almost like it's jumping so quick it looks still. Or going back and forth, back and forth, like a mind wrecking see-saw lately finally rusted the connection until it....got stuck.
School starts in 13 days. (Yes, I'm counting down.) For the first 8 weeks I'm on the "Freshman Schedule" - Mondays 10:30 to 5, Tues-Fri 9 to 5. After that I switch to "Senior Schedule" - Tues-Sat 9 to 5:30. The good thing: I'm done by May of 09 and will have my license. Bad thing: I can't do the one thing that keeps me semi-sane......... Theater. Ugh!
My Great Aunt just celebrated her 80th birthday and I couldn't be there to share it with her. She's not doing too well health wise as it is and she's one of those aunts I've always connected with. Life goes on. I'm not too heartbroken about it. It just would have been nice to be there.
Dad's BDay is coming up in August and my mom and I are trying our best to make it so I'm there to surprise him. . . but the airlines aren't working in our favor. At all. If they don't, that means I won't be able to visit until November if not until December, depending on school schedule. Full time students don't exactly have a lot of leisure time and I don't know how this cosmetology school thing works yet. (Probably because I haven't started, huh?)
My cousins lately have been annoyingly defiant. Pretty sure I demoted myself from "favorite in household" to "fuck . . . it's another adult to boss us around." Secretly, I'm quite proud of my demotion.
Lost my two closest friends within a 2 month time frame. Moving really does show you who was there because you were "convenient" to be friend with. So much for 6 years of that shit.
Pushing away feelings or trying to ignore them is totally useless, I've come to find. It's all up to the universe though. Now I'm remembering why I chose to be single. Ha-ha.
Ahhh, well. I'm excited about next weekend :) I have a visitor coming that I haven't TRULY hung out with for like....a year. Ha-ha. YAY!!!!!! Happy, happy, joy, joy.
In all the mess, there is good, and I know this. Sometimes the mess just becomes a weed and suffocates everything else thats beautifully growing. It's not gone though, just broken. Broken can be fixed.
I think my writers block is unblocked now.
School starts in 13 days. (Yes, I'm counting down.) For the first 8 weeks I'm on the "Freshman Schedule" - Mondays 10:30 to 5, Tues-Fri 9 to 5. After that I switch to "Senior Schedule" - Tues-Sat 9 to 5:30. The good thing: I'm done by May of 09 and will have my license. Bad thing: I can't do the one thing that keeps me semi-sane......... Theater. Ugh!
My Great Aunt just celebrated her 80th birthday and I couldn't be there to share it with her. She's not doing too well health wise as it is and she's one of those aunts I've always connected with. Life goes on. I'm not too heartbroken about it. It just would have been nice to be there.
Dad's BDay is coming up in August and my mom and I are trying our best to make it so I'm there to surprise him. . . but the airlines aren't working in our favor. At all. If they don't, that means I won't be able to visit until November if not until December, depending on school schedule. Full time students don't exactly have a lot of leisure time and I don't know how this cosmetology school thing works yet. (Probably because I haven't started, huh?)
My cousins lately have been annoyingly defiant. Pretty sure I demoted myself from "favorite in household" to "fuck . . . it's another adult to boss us around." Secretly, I'm quite proud of my demotion.
Lost my two closest friends within a 2 month time frame. Moving really does show you who was there because you were "convenient" to be friend with. So much for 6 years of that shit.
Pushing away feelings or trying to ignore them is totally useless, I've come to find. It's all up to the universe though. Now I'm remembering why I chose to be single. Ha-ha.
Ahhh, well. I'm excited about next weekend :) I have a visitor coming that I haven't TRULY hung out with for like....a year. Ha-ha. YAY!!!!!! Happy, happy, joy, joy.
In all the mess, there is good, and I know this. Sometimes the mess just becomes a weed and suffocates everything else thats beautifully growing. It's not gone though, just broken. Broken can be fixed.
I think my writers block is unblocked now.