The day all things went weird
Okay just got back from chris's. Well none of his friends know about me. Maybe i am just a booty call. Defiently feel sick right now. Theirs this chick amber his last girlfriend the one he love, and the one who got away. I know what thats like because of steve. So i can understand that, but he also like Brittney. I dont blame him she's drop dead gorgeous. Part of me wonders though, does he really like me. I dont think so, soo what do i do? I told him that if he likes brittney ( which he does) then he can dump me for her. I know he will because their so close. also sshe doesnt annoy him like i do. Am i really annoying? If i am then someone just tell me. He thinks if he leaves me i'll be heartbroken...right. I mean iw ould be bummed but not devasted like some girls are. Their are plenty of fish in the sea. I do now know that i dont love him and probably never will in that way. Plus in june its going to be over anyways...so maybe i should just give my self a break. Maybe i should give my self worthiness some respect. I now know that i wont have to pretend to feel sick tomorrow cause this feeling is sick. Its feeling of bummness, lol, is that a word??? hello there the angel from my nightmare. I've been here before a few times and i'm quiet aware were dying soo here i am i'm trying so here i am ..i give up on love. there's no such thing..:cry: now i'm crying why does this stuff happen to me? maybe it will make me stronger. later