my feelings
tell me that i'm alright...??? i'm so confused with my emotions and who i love. I really like Steve...but i dont get how he could of left me and then when i found him he was back in my life. Then he says he stills loves me. I haven't seen him in two years pretty much..i love him and i cant get over him...but there's a lil itty bitty problem...my parents...absolutley dont want me to have anything to do with him.Every night i sit up and wonder if he is okay and what his thinking about..i'm so confused. Then there's this guy ryan S. his like such a horn dog... its like geeze give me a break...i met him at disneyland 3 years ago and we've been kind of dateing for 2 years..i love him but i never see him cause he lives in redding, CA. Thats northern Cali i live in southern Cali. So we never get to talk on the phone or hangout and he wants me to be with him forever...kind of creepy...uh..every guy i go for usually ends up going for someone else. Like this one guy Donny..uh that was a waste..what about ryhs..what a jerk...i wish sometimes i could just float away..i know having a boyfriend isnt everything but i would like to have a boyfriend..is that too much to ask for..????