these feelings
i dont know what it is but theirs so much drama this year and so many cliques. I dont know what i am, who am i? what do people see me as, just a good laugh or maybe the fat girl they feel sorry for. i'm like one of the biggest girls in my class and it bugs me. i'm trying to lose weight honestly but i cant stop eating sometimes, food is like comforting to me. i know thats so bad. its unhealthy but yeah know i dont know what i have anymore.And sarah and destiney are fighting and all i want to do is scream!!! its like ....i dont know. then boys...no one wants me i swear!! with this extra weight no one wants a fat girl. Hate to say it but its the truth. They only want skinny girls. and unfortunatly i'm not. i'm bigger, and that will change but its going to take alot of work. I've met some really nice people this week. This girl Kaitlen shes soooo nice. shes a cheerleader and i didnt think she'd ever say hi to me but she did so now in art class i sit with her and we talk. She's sooo funny. lol, my weeks been okay till the football game. i mean it was a blast but i was very self conscious. Well i g2g c ya.