randomness.
ya so u've probably noticed tehe lack of updating that i do. i apologize.
im always so busy its unbelievable. between work. school. homwork. and trying to have a social life? its been practically impossible. i also feel like a lot of the people that i was so incredibly close with.. are no longer as close as they used to be with me. and i feel a lot of drifting happening and i really don't like it. It's so hard to have different groups of friends and try to see them everyweek and hang out with them and so on. Its a lot to handle and i duno how to juggle seeing everyone. it sounds stupid. but ugh. i hate that feeling where u were once so comfortable with sumone and then u all of a sudden realize how much u guys don't talk or don't see eaach other. im honestly so sadd.
this week has not been a good week at all for me. i'm so parenoid. i feel like im always in a bitchy mood. and i dont mean to be. just ugim sorrie if i came across as that. just i get those days where i feel like everyone is out to get me or just like bad vibes and negative energy everywhere. its so annoyingg and i read too much into situations or things that people say. i drive myself insane basically. its not a good quality to have.
anyways. on a ligher note.. lol
life in general is pretty good lately. boy situations are crazy haha. only a few people kno about that shatt. im soo confusedd butt im seeing this guy andrew so thats good? haha things aree soo effed with other stuff i duno what to think ne more. o well. we shall see what the futuree has in store for moi =)
hmm so this weekend.. whats going on.
Friday:: i havta work then im doing something with Natalia.. what we are doing.. i have no clue lol.
Saturday:: i havta werk til 6 thenn doing something with god knows who. because plans got effed with nates party. soo if n e one wants to hang out or do something let me know okie?
Sunday:: lots of homwerk. i think i better start working on my isu for english because i havent started. all i did was look for articles. about it. im sucha failure at life i swear lol BUTT in the morningg. IM GOINGG shopping in the states with my mommie. saras mommy and SARA haha gettin my semi dress HELL YEAA> cant wait for that shitt. likee 22 days left. fricken right doggy. yea im probb going alone. and thats sad. lol o well. it will still bee funn. =)
hmmmm. soo today..
English:: couldnt get ne more boring. im like secluded from rema. nicole. lauren and yinka. so i never talk to them. mairy is behind me but whenever i talk to her. i get in shit. so im at a loss. im stuck with Adamo next to me who thinks hes funnie.. but hes really not lol. and mrs oulette. the fucking dinosaur. like her ankles look like sticks. i feel liek breaking them and she talks SOOO INCREDIIBLYY SLOWWW> like SPIT IT OUT. and is so repetitive. i cant stand her. like go fuck a dictionaryy.god.
Math:: got math test back. NOT GOOD AT ALL. fuck thank god we started trig. stuff i actually understand. ha stani makes my life. she was laughin so hard cuz im liek WOW U IDIOT. so sum kid that i duno his name dlol i think ts Misba. K his parents have a really cruel humour to call their child Misba. reminds me of the lion king actually haha. wow im so mean. but i thought it was funny:P
Lunch:: samee old shat. talked to everyone. took pics haha. yinkaa. " ALANA STOP POUTING IN UR PITURES!" haha funniest thing. it made my life. I CANT HELP IT GOD! im always ready for sum action;) haha
Tech:: had to do the damn drawing cuz missy and will are useless. missy made cheat sheets for mathh and me and wil just talked with brian as i drew the damn picture. danielle and her floppy plastic haha. nastyy. and the keyy down my top. K lets get that shit out. josh was leike WOAH. hahaha. andd poor enrique. everyone wont stop talking about that shit. TRUST ME i kno the feeling. people need to keep their mouth shut. liek so much gossip at our skewl its not even funnie. so stfu people. then wess. haha WHOSE UR BROTHER>> APPLE! wow. lol hes so abusive too. like GEEZ. andd buzzeo and hiss pants. stop giving urself a wedgie. and showing me ur stomach hair. cuz its just not cool k. lol SHAVE THAT SHIT! lol. and hayley was all ghetto with her pants rolled up haha. and will like kickin lepera cuz he had the tape on his back. that was funnie. and ALAN . omg i hate that kid with my life
. blah. tehres a lot of good people in that class. is fun. =)
vocal:: had a sub. and he looked leik santa clause. literally. soo just sang songs. did woarm ups.. umm. then yea bout it. left earlyy to go to my locker.
saw missay on the way. carried her wswimming bag cuz it was too heavy for her haha. and she missed her ride. poor thing haha so she walked me to my lockerr. i put my shita away. she went to her lockerr. i talked to peepss. dan sang to me relaly close to my ear. cuz uno how his voice is soo soothing. not really tho lol. then went downstairss. met up with missay againn. she tlaked to nicola.. then went too mainn hall talked to peeps. saw her sis. nate bit her lip and she was smilingg.. then we all walked outsidee. justina is a random lol i didnt kno she was wlaking with us and i hear her cursing haha funniest thing. im like thats GOTTA be justina. and i was right. so she used missys celly as missy and her sis fought leik madd. then her sis "bonded with my dad: hahaha lol. funniest thing. i love that gurl. thenn dropped them off at home..
andd now im here.
that was a short synopsis of my day. butt hell yes. u enjoyed it. U cant deny itt.. ahh okiee.
tonight im studying for a Macbeth test and NICOLA if u see this. dont forget about sending those questions. k thankss bella.
then math homwerkk. andd i finally got my drivers ed book hahahaha. lol i coulda had my G2 by now. but i dont even have my G1. so im gona get thatt soonn hopefullyy. b4 jan tho cuz then i wil havta wait til im 18 andd SCREW that lol.
k i duno what else to write? haha.
comments would be nice lol cuz i love hearing from yall and they make me feel special. even if i kno u dont read the whole entry cuz im a fag and write too much. im sorrie lol..
okie ciao all
aLana x.Ox <33
- - - - - -
I'll hold a place for you inside
Inside my heart for you and I
I won't forget these tears I cried
With every year that passes by
And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes
I'll give it up this time again
Some things are better left unsaid
And all I have are lasting dreams
Our word's worth more this time it seems
And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes (In your eyes)
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes (In your eyes)
In your eyes
im always so busy its unbelievable. between work. school. homwork. and trying to have a social life? its been practically impossible. i also feel like a lot of the people that i was so incredibly close with.. are no longer as close as they used to be with me. and i feel a lot of drifting happening and i really don't like it. It's so hard to have different groups of friends and try to see them everyweek and hang out with them and so on. Its a lot to handle and i duno how to juggle seeing everyone. it sounds stupid. but ugh. i hate that feeling where u were once so comfortable with sumone and then u all of a sudden realize how much u guys don't talk or don't see eaach other. im honestly so sadd.
this week has not been a good week at all for me. i'm so parenoid. i feel like im always in a bitchy mood. and i dont mean to be. just ugim sorrie if i came across as that. just i get those days where i feel like everyone is out to get me or just like bad vibes and negative energy everywhere. its so annoyingg and i read too much into situations or things that people say. i drive myself insane basically. its not a good quality to have.
anyways. on a ligher note.. lol
life in general is pretty good lately. boy situations are crazy haha. only a few people kno about that shatt. im soo confusedd butt im seeing this guy andrew so thats good? haha things aree soo effed with other stuff i duno what to think ne more. o well. we shall see what the futuree has in store for moi =)
hmm so this weekend.. whats going on.
Friday:: i havta work then im doing something with Natalia.. what we are doing.. i have no clue lol.
Saturday:: i havta werk til 6 thenn doing something with god knows who. because plans got effed with nates party. soo if n e one wants to hang out or do something let me know okie?
Sunday:: lots of homwerk. i think i better start working on my isu for english because i havent started. all i did was look for articles. about it. im sucha failure at life i swear lol BUTT in the morningg. IM GOINGG shopping in the states with my mommie. saras mommy and SARA haha gettin my semi dress HELL YEAA> cant wait for that shitt. likee 22 days left. fricken right doggy. yea im probb going alone. and thats sad. lol o well. it will still bee funn. =)
hmmmm. soo today..
English:: couldnt get ne more boring. im like secluded from rema. nicole. lauren and yinka. so i never talk to them. mairy is behind me but whenever i talk to her. i get in shit. so im at a loss. im stuck with Adamo next to me who thinks hes funnie.. but hes really not lol. and mrs oulette. the fucking dinosaur. like her ankles look like sticks. i feel liek breaking them and she talks SOOO INCREDIIBLYY SLOWWW> like SPIT IT OUT. and is so repetitive. i cant stand her. like go fuck a dictionaryy.god.
Math:: got math test back. NOT GOOD AT ALL. fuck thank god we started trig. stuff i actually understand. ha stani makes my life. she was laughin so hard cuz im liek WOW U IDIOT. so sum kid that i duno his name dlol i think ts Misba. K his parents have a really cruel humour to call their child Misba. reminds me of the lion king actually haha. wow im so mean. but i thought it was funny:P
Lunch:: samee old shat. talked to everyone. took pics haha. yinkaa. " ALANA STOP POUTING IN UR PITURES!" haha funniest thing. it made my life. I CANT HELP IT GOD! im always ready for sum action;) haha
Tech:: had to do the damn drawing cuz missy and will are useless. missy made cheat sheets for mathh and me and wil just talked with brian as i drew the damn picture. danielle and her floppy plastic haha. nastyy. and the keyy down my top. K lets get that shit out. josh was leike WOAH. hahaha. andd poor enrique. everyone wont stop talking about that shit. TRUST ME i kno the feeling. people need to keep their mouth shut. liek so much gossip at our skewl its not even funnie. so stfu people. then wess. haha WHOSE UR BROTHER>> APPLE! wow. lol hes so abusive too. like GEEZ. andd buzzeo and hiss pants. stop giving urself a wedgie. and showing me ur stomach hair. cuz its just not cool k. lol SHAVE THAT SHIT! lol. and hayley was all ghetto with her pants rolled up haha. and will like kickin lepera cuz he had the tape on his back. that was funnie. and ALAN . omg i hate that kid with my life
. blah. tehres a lot of good people in that class. is fun. =)
vocal:: had a sub. and he looked leik santa clause. literally. soo just sang songs. did woarm ups.. umm. then yea bout it. left earlyy to go to my locker.
saw missay on the way. carried her wswimming bag cuz it was too heavy for her haha. and she missed her ride. poor thing haha so she walked me to my lockerr. i put my shita away. she went to her lockerr. i talked to peepss. dan sang to me relaly close to my ear. cuz uno how his voice is soo soothing. not really tho lol. then went downstairss. met up with missay againn. she tlaked to nicola.. then went too mainn hall talked to peeps. saw her sis. nate bit her lip and she was smilingg.. then we all walked outsidee. justina is a random lol i didnt kno she was wlaking with us and i hear her cursing haha funniest thing. im like thats GOTTA be justina. and i was right. so she used missys celly as missy and her sis fought leik madd. then her sis "bonded with my dad: hahaha lol. funniest thing. i love that gurl. thenn dropped them off at home..
andd now im here.
that was a short synopsis of my day. butt hell yes. u enjoyed it. U cant deny itt.. ahh okiee.
tonight im studying for a Macbeth test and NICOLA if u see this. dont forget about sending those questions. k thankss bella.
then math homwerkk. andd i finally got my drivers ed book hahahaha. lol i coulda had my G2 by now. but i dont even have my G1. so im gona get thatt soonn hopefullyy. b4 jan tho cuz then i wil havta wait til im 18 andd SCREW that lol.
k i duno what else to write? haha.
comments would be nice lol cuz i love hearing from yall and they make me feel special. even if i kno u dont read the whole entry cuz im a fag and write too much. im sorrie lol..
okie ciao all
aLana x.Ox <33
- - - - - -
I'll hold a place for you inside
Inside my heart for you and I
I won't forget these tears I cried
With every year that passes by
And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes
I'll give it up this time again
Some things are better left unsaid
And all I have are lasting dreams
Our word's worth more this time it seems
And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes (In your eyes)
Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes (In your eyes)
In your eyes