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i got a new pink computer and i love love love it! it's so beautiful and fast and cool and yay! however.... it's so tough when people i love don't love eachother. it seems like it always happens to me. i love people and i want them to love each other too, but it never happens like that (i couldn't be that lucky of course). it makes it hard for me then when there's anamosity and they don't like each other. idk these said people are going to try harder to be okay with each other for my sake, which means a lot to me. but i could've done without the stress in the first place. thanksgiving was okay, i just dont like it when we have people come here. i like my breaks to relax and not have to entertain people that i don't like. but i made a deal with my mom and i can do whatever i awnt the rest of ht weekened if i was nice to people yesterday, which i was. my aunt peggy went retarted tho and threw pumpkin pie on everyone and put my brother's face in it, because the pie was gross cuz my dad forgot to put the sugar in. he's such a good cook, but sometimes he'll forget an important ingredient. today i'm going to dinner with amy, sarah, chris, tim and jeff. hopefully that'll go good and everyone will get along and it'll be fun. the whole fight w/ chris about it was retarded.. since i was going to give up my day to see him for jeff i thought this would be a nice compromise so i'd still get to see him and he'd be able to hang out with jeff all night, but it started a huge i don't even know waht to call it. a huge thing we'll say. o well, it worked out. we love each other. good times. tomorrow i'm going out for coffee with the girlies who're home from school. that should be good cuz i miss them. i really hate my chin, it's so long and pointy, gross. i like my music a lot. i've been doin pilates so my tummy's getting smaller and toned again, which is a good thing. maybe i'll be happier with myself if i feel prettier and skinnier. my cold is finally starting to go away, it's been not fun at all. i'm so glad sarah is home, it was nice hanging out with her and amy and it was cool cuz it really felt like no time had passed at all. hopefully it'll be the same with everyone else. o and another thing that bugs me is i feel like my relationship wtih chris is getting judged because it's not the same as amy's. but i'm happy and it works for me and him. i don't like having to explain it to them and and almost endorse it. i'm not stupid, i know what i want and it's him and i'm happy and treated great and i'm very loved and i love him. end of story. get off my case, please. okay i'm getting yelled at to go out and greet everyone (yeahhhhh like i want to) but i am quite hungry so i'm gonna go eat. i like my new keyboard and i like hte pussycat dolls a lot haha. c ya lata