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Currently on my first deployment, and to put it simply - the past two months have been difficult. I constantly feel like I'm floundering. I don't know the housing world, I'm learning the programs, players, and politics, and to top it all off, they decided to make me a "lead". Though to be honest, I'm just kind of floating along with other people providing me the direction and advice I need. I do not feel like I'm in any way leading anything the way I envision a true leader. I'm learning a lot, though, and hopefully will come out of the other side of this with a better understanding of FEMA's mission.
It's been hard to be away from Joe. Thank god I'm only deployed to Sacramento. Getting to see Joe weekly has been what's kept me sane during these past 40 days. I don't know what I would do without him. I feel terrible that he's the one taking care of Izzy and our apartment with no help. He's been so supportive. It was ok for the first couple of weeks, but I can tell it's wearing on him, too. He's home alone and working just like I am here. It's hard to be without your partner.
I want to spend the next couple of weeks really thinking about what I want to accomplish next year. I've been getting in the bad habit of turning on the TV and getting sucked into whatever show is on HGTV (they're all the same, but man, so addicting). I want to read, and write, and challenge myself. I spend all day worrying about other people's problems (not to belittle a housing crisis) with little or no thought to my own self-care. I need a project that I can own outside of work that will keep me engaged.
I often come back to starting a candle company but never pulled the trigger on even attempting to make my own candles. I ordered the kit, but it got lost in mail, and I never followed-up and ordered a new one. What's wrong with me? Amazon one-click shopping should have made this happen months ago. Now that I'm deployed, I'll realistically need to push this off until I'm back home regularly.
I want to prioritize my health. Maybe I'll try going vegan for a week and see how it goes?
I want to travel and spend time with my family and friends.
Actions speak louder than words - how you spend your time reflects your priorities. I need to think about a few things before I get sucked further down into the bad habit hole.
It's been hard to be away from Joe. Thank god I'm only deployed to Sacramento. Getting to see Joe weekly has been what's kept me sane during these past 40 days. I don't know what I would do without him. I feel terrible that he's the one taking care of Izzy and our apartment with no help. He's been so supportive. It was ok for the first couple of weeks, but I can tell it's wearing on him, too. He's home alone and working just like I am here. It's hard to be without your partner.
I want to spend the next couple of weeks really thinking about what I want to accomplish next year. I've been getting in the bad habit of turning on the TV and getting sucked into whatever show is on HGTV (they're all the same, but man, so addicting). I want to read, and write, and challenge myself. I spend all day worrying about other people's problems (not to belittle a housing crisis) with little or no thought to my own self-care. I need a project that I can own outside of work that will keep me engaged.
I often come back to starting a candle company but never pulled the trigger on even attempting to make my own candles. I ordered the kit, but it got lost in mail, and I never followed-up and ordered a new one. What's wrong with me? Amazon one-click shopping should have made this happen months ago. Now that I'm deployed, I'll realistically need to push this off until I'm back home regularly.
I want to prioritize my health. Maybe I'll try going vegan for a week and see how it goes?
I want to travel and spend time with my family and friends.
Actions speak louder than words - how you spend your time reflects your priorities. I need to think about a few things before I get sucked further down into the bad habit hole.