done with it all

[lileopardbabz81]

Im done dealing with other peoples shit im done being the one who sits back watches everyone make mistakes and get hurt then tryin to mend the broken hearts by kicking the shit out of someone .. as much as i would love to right now i cant handle it... im hurt for once in my life and im sorry that i dont know how to deal with it and im sorry that im a menatl case right now.. but i have been there of all of you and none of you are here for me... think about how long it took you to get over the one you love... now remeber you did that with the help of people that love you... i dont have that... you are all to entrapted in your own lives .. the one time i need you.. the one time i nee someone to tell me how to act and how to deal with these emotions... cause whatever i am doin apparently isnt working...i hae put everything on hold for you just to make you feel a little better about yourself even when it was "nothing" im telling you that what im going throught isnt nothing and i still can get a minute of your time... the only person that has been there for me i feel bad talking to anymore cuase i know he is sick or hearing about it... i would be too .... im sorry im broken.. i have been for years and it just took this for me to realize how messed up i really am... im sorry.... AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

p s .. chris love you soo much!!! Thank you for putting up with me lately!!!