Long Day
Baby sitting really takes a toll on me now. I never used to be this short tempered. It just really seems like these kids don't freaking listen. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've yelled, I've timed out, I've taken things away, I've called parents. I just don't know... I called Brian today to have him talk to the kids because they are just having an awful day today. I really feel for Brian, he's in a very hard situation. I wish I could help him some how. He doesn't want to loose people he cares about but at the same time he can't be walked all over and taken advantage of... I hope things for him and Cathy work out for the best.
Pregnancy- 11 weeks now. I can't wait to get to the second trimester. I'll feel a lot safer about everything. But so far so good. I saw my baby's heart beat for the first time about a week and a half ago. I was so relieved. I pray everyday for things to go the way I would like in this pregnancy. I can't loose another- my heart can't take it. I feel bad for the girls that don't appreciate their pregnancies by smoking, and drinking, and doing drugs, because there are so many of us who have difficulties carrying a child and never even do anything to cause their miscarriages. They just don't see how lucky they really are.
Kurt my love- I need his help more than ever now but I just feel like I shouldn't have to ask for it. I don't understand why he can't just help me on his own with the household chores. I don't see why I have to be the only one who does anything- laundry, dishes, sweeping, mopping, cleaning in general. My love is in for a super rude awakening. ;P
All in all things are ok. I'm going to quit my job and babysit full time. Maybe find some more kids to watch along with 3 I have now.
<3 C.V
Pregnancy- 11 weeks now. I can't wait to get to the second trimester. I'll feel a lot safer about everything. But so far so good. I saw my baby's heart beat for the first time about a week and a half ago. I was so relieved. I pray everyday for things to go the way I would like in this pregnancy. I can't loose another- my heart can't take it. I feel bad for the girls that don't appreciate their pregnancies by smoking, and drinking, and doing drugs, because there are so many of us who have difficulties carrying a child and never even do anything to cause their miscarriages. They just don't see how lucky they really are.
Kurt my love- I need his help more than ever now but I just feel like I shouldn't have to ask for it. I don't understand why he can't just help me on his own with the household chores. I don't see why I have to be the only one who does anything- laundry, dishes, sweeping, mopping, cleaning in general. My love is in for a super rude awakening. ;P
All in all things are ok. I'm going to quit my job and babysit full time. Maybe find some more kids to watch along with 3 I have now.
<3 C.V