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ive been trying my best to make sure that i have fun this summer but it just doesnt seem to be working out for me.
June 9 my grandma died and i swear it felt like the whole world came to an end that night. i kept pushing off going to see her because i thought i had more time. i was hanging out with some people that night and decided to go home early but i told everyone there that i knew i was going to regret not going up to see her that night. i knew it was going to happen. and i still didnt go and now i feel so guilty for it.
i was one of the people who carried my grandmothers casket at the funeral. most of the people were like normally the men do that. i dont give a damn if green men in purple suites do it, that was my fucking grandma. she was the most important person in the world to me and now shes gone. just like that with a blink of an eye.
its crazy. i feel like i took the last couple of months for granted. and i wont ever be able to get them back.
i havent really talked anyone much i dont really feel like it either. im still worried about school in august. i dont have all of my credits and im really considering dropping out even though i only have one more year left. im just really sick and tired of having to play catch up.
June 9 my grandma died and i swear it felt like the whole world came to an end that night. i kept pushing off going to see her because i thought i had more time. i was hanging out with some people that night and decided to go home early but i told everyone there that i knew i was going to regret not going up to see her that night. i knew it was going to happen. and i still didnt go and now i feel so guilty for it.
i was one of the people who carried my grandmothers casket at the funeral. most of the people were like normally the men do that. i dont give a damn if green men in purple suites do it, that was my fucking grandma. she was the most important person in the world to me and now shes gone. just like that with a blink of an eye.
its crazy. i feel like i took the last couple of months for granted. and i wont ever be able to get them back.
i havent really talked anyone much i dont really feel like it either. im still worried about school in august. i dont have all of my credits and im really considering dropping out even though i only have one more year left. im just really sick and tired of having to play catch up.