i just want to get things out in the open for me
so far this week has just down right sucked for me. i dont know how things could get worse. well i know how they could be worse but im praying that they wont be that bad.
so my grandma has liver cancer. and i found out today that she starts her treatment tomorrow, i also found out the she has to be on it for the rest of her life. which isnt going to be that long according to the doctors, they gave her until december. no one lives forever, right. yea i keep telling myself that but it doesnt seem to be helping.
im an emotional wreck right now. i think i hide it pretty well if you ask me.
my mom quit her job. now i have to get one to make sure we dont loose the house. and hopefully within the next couple of months, ill have enough saved up so that i can move out. i really cant live with my mom anymore, i cant deal with all her emotional problems on top of mine, shell have to figure it out on her own just like i will.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
pretty much the only person that makes me happy is johnathan. hes so amazing im just like what have i done to deserve you. i couldnt have asked for a greater guy, really. and i dont care what anyone says, i think he has changed he wouldnt have stuck with me so long if he hadnt. everyone told me to break up with him when he ran away. they it was for the best because he probably wasnt coming back. and that night he showed up at my house at 1 in the morning, just so he could see me. normally he wouldve just been like oh well whatever forget you then and never talked to anyone again. but he came back for me, and he also went home for me.
i love him so much.
werd
so my grandma has liver cancer. and i found out today that she starts her treatment tomorrow, i also found out the she has to be on it for the rest of her life. which isnt going to be that long according to the doctors, they gave her until december. no one lives forever, right. yea i keep telling myself that but it doesnt seem to be helping.
im an emotional wreck right now. i think i hide it pretty well if you ask me.
my mom quit her job. now i have to get one to make sure we dont loose the house. and hopefully within the next couple of months, ill have enough saved up so that i can move out. i really cant live with my mom anymore, i cant deal with all her emotional problems on top of mine, shell have to figure it out on her own just like i will.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
pretty much the only person that makes me happy is johnathan. hes so amazing im just like what have i done to deserve you. i couldnt have asked for a greater guy, really. and i dont care what anyone says, i think he has changed he wouldnt have stuck with me so long if he hadnt. everyone told me to break up with him when he ran away. they it was for the best because he probably wasnt coming back. and that night he showed up at my house at 1 in the morning, just so he could see me. normally he wouldve just been like oh well whatever forget you then and never talked to anyone again. but he came back for me, and he also went home for me.
i love him so much.
werd