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[lilemoboi01]

i am still sick but not as much so that is good

i am speaking at teh concert next week and i am really nervous it is just for bout a minute or 2, but i hope i dont get nausious (spelled it wrong)

yeaserterday i went to target and bought 10 cameras (they were on sale) for the NYC feild trip, i so cant wait.

here is a poem i wrote:

The undying memory

u tore my soul
ripping me apart
destroying my childhood
destroying my life
dark secrets and dark memories
are all that are left
u turned my dreams into unbearable nightmares

i wake in a warm sweat
wanting to die
but instead i place a mask on my face
that is nothing but an illusion to the world, in which is reside
hiding th epain, hiding the fear

i can no longer run
from teh past that will not erase
still feeling ur presence on me
ur touch still burns my skin
teh scars still remain

i felt u that nite
ur anger and rage
ur corrupt childhodd taking out on mine
u took ur torment and put it against me
me...
a young boy
u did more damage than u wil ever kno
u took my innocence
changed me from pure to infected
casting dark shadows on my once happy world

u left me
left me to die
u left me to vanish with the moon
u left me with evil thoughts

i thought it was my fault
that i soem how was guilty of this sin
so i locked myself from the world
becoming a shadow amongst shadows
u left me with so much to hold
more that i could ever imagine

my tears have become tears of pity
pity for u
ur life and all u went through
because no one deserves that,
but what is done is done
he branded u and now u have branded me

so now i fear myself above all things
if i will take someone's childhood

i just have one question...
nothing that can make it go away
nothing that can stop this dark sin
but one question to get ur mind to think...
why?

this poem i got pattened and it is going to go in my book. i want to get a book published whit all my poems, i hope it works.