V-Day update...
Ok ppls - this is my update:
V-Day 2007 has come and gone & this is what happened!
Well - I didn't go to bed on V-Day morning til 5am and then I woke up and went online and got depressed & got offline - my Mom & Dad saw that I was depressed and they gave me a card, a pillow that has a speaker in it so I can lay my head down and listen to my iPod and a really scary ape that has a kissing noise and then says I love you...it is scary "believe it"! Then I jumped in the shower & then my friend Icey came over to spend some time w/me before she went on a date w/her bf Alex - She gave me a card and some Yanyan for v-day! That was really sweet of her!
I then got online and seen a IM from Cecil saying "Thanks" *I sent him a card*
I am glad he got it!
A lot of ppl told me not to send him one but I always do so I wasn't going to let ppl tell me what to do...
Well I got a lot of Happy V-Day wishes on Gaia & Myspace but only 3 ppl irl *in real life* told me Happy V-Day & that was my Mom, Dad & Icey....I wanted to see if Cecil would say it but he never did...I didn't want to push him to say it so I just left it alone every time I talked to him online - I figured if he wanted to tell me he would do so.
So yea - I didn't exactly have the best day...I know it is just a commercial holiday but it still gets to me! It is still hard to watch my friends be happy and to know that they are happy and to feel as miserable as I do...I know my Mom and Dad meant well by giving me the things that they did & I also feel the love from my friend Icey w/the wonderful card she gave me that touched my heart - I loved it! It is just that I know my Mom & Dad felt sorry for me & every year they get me something so I don't feel left out *even though I feel left out n e ways* I would just like to have the love of someone that loves me back - fills the void in my heart that my friends just can't fill even though they do try w/all their heart!
My friend Alice says "God will bring someone to you when you least expect it"! I am sorry Alice but it is just not my nature to sit & wait for the "unexpected" or "least expected"!
Well - I just wanted to let you guys know what went on for my V-Day - heres hoping that there is an upside soon....
- Jen
V-Day 2007 has come and gone & this is what happened!
Well - I didn't go to bed on V-Day morning til 5am and then I woke up and went online and got depressed & got offline - my Mom & Dad saw that I was depressed and they gave me a card, a pillow that has a speaker in it so I can lay my head down and listen to my iPod and a really scary ape that has a kissing noise and then says I love you...it is scary "believe it"! Then I jumped in the shower & then my friend Icey came over to spend some time w/me before she went on a date w/her bf Alex - She gave me a card and some Yanyan for v-day! That was really sweet of her!
I then got online and seen a IM from Cecil saying "Thanks" *I sent him a card*
I am glad he got it!
A lot of ppl told me not to send him one but I always do so I wasn't going to let ppl tell me what to do...
Well I got a lot of Happy V-Day wishes on Gaia & Myspace but only 3 ppl irl *in real life* told me Happy V-Day & that was my Mom, Dad & Icey....I wanted to see if Cecil would say it but he never did...I didn't want to push him to say it so I just left it alone every time I talked to him online - I figured if he wanted to tell me he would do so.
So yea - I didn't exactly have the best day...I know it is just a commercial holiday but it still gets to me! It is still hard to watch my friends be happy and to know that they are happy and to feel as miserable as I do...I know my Mom and Dad meant well by giving me the things that they did & I also feel the love from my friend Icey w/the wonderful card she gave me that touched my heart - I loved it! It is just that I know my Mom & Dad felt sorry for me & every year they get me something so I don't feel left out *even though I feel left out n e ways* I would just like to have the love of someone that loves me back - fills the void in my heart that my friends just can't fill even though they do try w/all their heart!
My friend Alice says "God will bring someone to you when you least expect it"! I am sorry Alice but it is just not my nature to sit & wait for the "unexpected" or "least expected"!
Well - I just wanted to let you guys know what went on for my V-Day - heres hoping that there is an upside soon....
- Jen