Tired....
I've been tired for years, and I swear this can't be normal. I fully understand and accept that with age, things change. I'm tired all the time, I have headaches all the time, my memory sucks to the point I forget words.... (cut to yesterday, trying to remember the word for rug, I had to draw a square with my hands and point at the thing, and hubby finally told me what it was called).
I accept that a certain degree of these problems comes from my relentless aging. I'm 42? 43? Somewhere in that ballpark. I get that things go downhill at 40. But this quickly?
How do I know what's normal aging, and what's something else?
I've suffered from chronic headaches for all my adult life. Been tested, poked, prodded, scanned, monitored, you name it. Nothing wrong, just chronic headaches. But what used to be 3 - 4 headaches a week, has turned into 6-7 or more. I'll have one in the morning, and it'll fade away by noon, and then come back later afternoon. Or it'll pop up just after lunch, and then stay for the whole day. It varies, but it's there. And it's not migraine headache. Probably a 3 or 4 on the pain scale. But it's there. A nagging dull aching pain.
I've been complaining for years that my memory is fading. Chalked that up to my Vitamin D deficiency = cognitive impairment, ie, memory loss. But it's getting worse.
And tired.... I could sleep. All. The. Time. There isn't any point during the day when if someone said "hey, why don't you go have a nap" where I'd say no. I get a full nights sleep, and I could take a nap 20 minutes after I wake up. I've got the Cpap machine, it helps. I do feel more rested. But I'm still tired.
I have so many things I want to do - things around the house, projects, chores, and it's not that I don't want to do them - I want to. But every time I think about it, or even start to do something, I'm exhausted. Daily I think that I'll grab a dog and go for a walk. I'd love to hop on my bike and start riding again. I even bought one of those walking pads so I could just walk and watch TV. But, I'm so tired.
Is this normal? Is this my life now?