do you remember when we used to sing?

[lildukes]

this week has been absolutely insane and i was miserable for 95% of it.. it all started after saturday night when i went bowling with steve, devon, pat, krissy, and kris.. and we realized that i broke out in hives? go figure the week i have a million midterms and papers to do.. so we thought it was from my shirt until i woke up the next morning with them all over my leg! then we arrived at the conclusion that it was the amoxicillin i was on.. so idiot me took it again just to double check and my legs and my stomach broke out all over.. my mom called the doctor monday so they prescribed me with azithromycin.. tuesday i had my dreaded bio midterm, and according to the email dr. tanaka sent the class yesterday "we will talk about the exam this week, and the news is NOT good.. you do not realize how much time you need to devote to this class nor do you allot yourself the time to read. start to read and be prepared before class." - friggin bitch, i never hated someone so much in my life.. that can't be good but honestly i'm expecting a 40 on it anyway if i even get that.. the average for the non honors kids was a 48.. honestly what teacher likes to see her students fail and then laugh about it? because she does and i hate it.. then i had to leave that class after that test and go to bio lab and take a quiz that i also think i failed.. so yea that definitely ruined my week and steve says i was being mean to everyone and i really didn't mean to be.. i came home sick to my stomach with a headache.. wednesday i took my italian test and it made me feel ok about myself ha.. i had a terribly long day but how many people can say they spent wednesday afternoon recrystallizing tryptanthrin and their lab instructor thought it was gorgeous? ha only good thing i ever did in that class.. i was so fed up with everything so i decided not to do any homework on wednesday night and i was thinking about things and really upset about a lot.. i hate that i constantly think, because then i ruin even the good things in my life for myself because i always have something on my mind.. so pretty much i screwed myself over because i decided im done with biology and didn't read anything and in class on thursday i was completely lost, more lost than i usually am.. so that sucks.. thursday night i had to babysit natalie and peter and then steve came over to watch grey's anatomy with me.. natalie really thinks he's her boyfriend.. she was hugging him and kissing him and then got really jealous when he was playing with peter ahahha.. she's out of control.. on friday i had a good day for the most part.. i got a 98 on my italian test, and a 10/10 on each of my three chemistry quizzes from the past 3 weeks.. so i was happy.. when i came home me and dana went shopping for about 2 hours, i love going out with her randomly and catching up on everything, like nothing ever changed, we're still weird and we spent our time buying dora the explorer hats and maracas for devon's birthday dinner.. around 8 we gathered up the kiddies and took the zoom zoom to don pablos for devons birthday.. it was me, devon, krista, dana, krissy, and kaylyn.. it was a fun time i think we were laughing the whole time and we got punked 3 times because they came out singing happy birthday and we thought it was for devon and then i stepped on one of the waitresses and me and krista were peeing ourselves of course and couldnt stop laughing.. the food was ehhh, i dont do mexican. after we came home steve picked me up =] and i stayed out with him for a while.. yesterday i did homework for most of the day and last night was steve's dad's surprise party.. it was really nice and i got to meet his whole family and they're really nice i like them a lot.. if i didn't already know his cousin nicole i probably would have felt more awkward than i already did hahah.. everything's good between the two of us now, i just wish i didn't think so much.. i have a hard time realizing things and i do not realize that the same things i get a little upset over used to be present in my own life just not to such a big extent.. i dont know how to explain it.. but i love him =] and i dont want that to change.. yea i know, give me a break, adriennes actually settled down and saying "i love him" this hasn't happened in a long time..

i also realized im slacking big time, and i hate it.. i have a chem midterm tomorrow that i have to start studying for still.. ill start it at 11 i guess.. i need to set my priorities straight and i dont know how to do so when i feel so crappy about what should be one of my top priorities if i want to get anywhere with my life.. i'm considering changing to a chem major, after i see how i do on tomorrows test.. that info will be revealed on wednesday haha..