about my life

[lildrummer50]

right now in my life...
what is going on
i'm in school
i'm doing what i love
i have friends who look out for me
i'm unhappy
i think i will always be unhappy
it is possibly my nature
i don't mind it really
i'm used to it by now
when i become happy someone takes a big fat shit on it
that's fine i suppose
it's how it's always been
i applied to americorps
i hope i get the job
i really hope i get the job
i want to make a difference
i want to change someone's life
i want to do something i don't hate
i just wish i hadn't sat passively by while my dreams were ripped apart in front of me so many years ago
i wish i had taken a stand
but i didn't
i didn't
i can't believe i just took it
maybe it's true what they say
when you lose your dreams
you lose your happiness
i hope to reclaim both one day
for now
i just wanna help someone else get there