The Week
Alright this is my update, Im tired and upset just feeling shitty because Im not getting a job from 10 applications I sent out. I need realse from all this shit for a bit. I hope game will actually happen Richard has been sick for 2 weeks I worry for him sometimes I hope he gets better at least. Gods, ok realx now *shakes her head slightly* Now, what to do well hmmm... Think mind think.... Alright I got to crack on my job search since Alaan and I need to pay rent for our place or we'd get kicked out if we don't meet up the deadline. Stress slightly but emotionally I guess I'm alright, just still missing someone I dare not say again. But to keep me happy I surrounded myself with work and friends. I go out occassionally with Richard, to dates and game together he still cares and loves me though we are not together for reasons that are private. At least we are still hanging out which is good I think our friendship as strengthen more then anything because of the whole relationship we had at least we don't hate each other.
I don't know I feel at peace with the world at the moment even though I have alot to be stressed about. I try not to think about it because if I think about it would just make my heart hurt. I guess my Kendo lessons, and talking with Cam. really helped with me realize I need to balance myself or I'll always be weak and my mind will not rest. Im happy though he is understanding to my feelings and siutation he's a good friend to me and teacher.
In The Arms Of An Angel-Sarah Mclachlan
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an Angel fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
I don't know I feel at peace with the world at the moment even though I have alot to be stressed about. I try not to think about it because if I think about it would just make my heart hurt. I guess my Kendo lessons, and talking with Cam. really helped with me realize I need to balance myself or I'll always be weak and my mind will not rest. Im happy though he is understanding to my feelings and siutation he's a good friend to me and teacher.
In The Arms Of An Angel-Sarah Mclachlan
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an Angel fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here