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This track seems to be going the wrong way
I wish i could go back
and take a right where I took a left
it seems this is a never ending road
where people leave
and where others grow old
it seems to go on forever
without any stops
no one stops to ask if i need to talk
everyone seems to be five miles ahead
and I'm left behind
wishing I were dead
What do I have to do?
I can’t tell you
Use your brain
To see I’m in pain
Agony in fact
Has deep impact
Crushing hopes dreams and ambitions
With no inhibitions
You could at least try
To stop shouting when I cry
To stop nagging when I’m down
Or stop talking when I frown
Work with me
Not against me
Push me along
Not back to where I’m from
I’m trying so hard to pick myself up
But I’m stuck
And you’re not helping
What do I have to do?
To show I need you
I can’t kneel on the ground
You’ll kick me around
My insides already bruised and broken
My words already spoken
Your ears always shut
And you can’t even look
At the daughter that came from you
You must be ashamed…
So am I
How come I'm alone?
How come no one likes me?
I wish I knew the answers
I wish I knew how to fix it
I wonder what's wrong
day in and day out
what do I need to do different?
How do I need to act?
Should I be someone else?
Or should I just give up?
but that's not my nature
I'm a fighter
not a snail that crawls into my shell
How come I want to hide?
How come I want to run?
I want to get away,
far away from here
where no one knows me
and no one will judge me
Is there such a place?
I don't think there is
but one can always hope
Thought this would get better…
But it only seems to worsen as the days pass…
My happiness has deceased,
I knew it wouldn't last…
The anger has built up inside,
I'm ready to break loose…
I won't be able to take much more of this abuse…
My body's twitching, mind gone blank…
I'm outraged by all the pain that I've gone through…
I've put up afront with nowhere to run to…
Eyes as red as blood, mascara down my face…
I'm gone, discharged from this place…
My brain has decomposed from all this mess…
Some people just weren't meant to be happy I guess…
I feel like there's been a match against myself…
I'm thinking about people, while they're thinking about wealth…
I'm the victim at fault for all this hell…
Yet, no one's sensitive to it, they don't know me that well…
I can't take this no more
The lies the pain the thought of myself
I just want to hide deep inside myself where nobody will look
All the fairy tale say once upon time~
Deep down inside there I was confused
Never want to come out
Inside my wall I put up years ago and no one noticed I escaped
No one gets me
they say im still here but how can they no when all they sees my body never inside my soul
Nothings wrong~ if you don't ask
I may look happy during the day but I cry myself to sleep at night
No one knows no one cares
My bodys still here but I ran off a long time ago with my soul and my heart
Please just look and you'll see what's left of me
Look deep into my eyes past the hope that I once had past the hurt
and look deep deep inside and you'll see I left, because what was once inside is empty
Can't you see?? I escaped.
I sit here alone in the night
wondering what is wrong with me
no one ever cares nor will they ever
there's a hole in my heart waiting to be filled
I fight back the tears
hoping no one will notice
while at the same time I wish they would
Why doesn't anyone notice?
Why can't they see me for me?
and not some rumor that everyone believes
Do I need to change? should I change?
I used to think not
but now I'm not so sure
they all rush past acting like I don't exist
maybe I don't
maybe I don't allow myself to
What do i need to do to make you notice?
just once, one time
I want to feel like i belong
my heart is empty and it waits
for how long I ask...
a year? a month? tomorrow?
to me it seems like an eternity
No one knows whats its like
to feel unwanted all the time
to always have to be afraid
and never be happy
no one knows how im living
actually barely living at all
trying to hold on to something
i think i should just let go and fall
but i still hold on
well trying to at least
i guess i gotta wait
til i find a place
were im suppose to be
and now i hope you see
how much it completly sucks being ...me
Why is everything so confusing?
One moment i’m winning, the next i’m losing...
What do you do when the person who made you upset
Was the only one you thought you'd always count on?