Aug 14, 2010 07:27
I had a dream today, just now actually, that cameoed a ton of people I used to know and hang out with. Some I haven't talked to in 5, 7, even 10 years and it made me wake up with an ache in my heart. I miss them. I miss all my friends at AiW. I miss everyone I went to London with. I miss my AiCH friends and everyone I knew at Flo Valley.
Maybe I just miss college. I didn't want to tap out the way I did. I really tried to finish even with everything stacked against me. It killed me to quit. The fact that I was only a few classes from grad made it worse.I know there were things I could have done differently but I don't know if it would have changed anything. I could have quit school when I first started getting sick before all of the appeals and my grades began to tank. Of course, I didn't know for 2 years that my gallbladder was dying. I thought it was something I could take a pill for. The doctors told me it was a pinched nerve in my spine, then IBS, then an ulcer, then back to IBS.
I haven't been in a rush to go back but I think that's what all the signs are. I need to find a way to go back. I need to finish. Thankfully, I think I'm on the right path. I've been looking into it and Wal-Mart has programs and scholarships available to help people go back to school. I'm not sure how I could convince the board that I deserve their help but I feel like I have to try.