Lolz nervous breakdown.

[lildemisa]

No one is left to read this shit yet there is something weirdly comforting about throwing a white flag on the field.

Where to start?

Well. I wake up to the news that my…lets stick with best friend because I think it can be saved someday…seems to be trying to get something together on Friday before Halloween, ya know the day diner con would have been

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[hay_gurl_hay]

That whole conversation, I do apologize for.
There was a lot of stuff going on at the time and I had just pretty much given up. I didn't mean to lash out on you like that. I was just done with everything.

Joe was bitching and complaining about his mom pretty much for the past week and a half he's been a miserable prick, so I just didn't think things would work. With him being like that, it would put me in a bad mood if there was going to be a party so I just didn't want to bring the whole thing down. Not to mention my con buddies were all dropping out left and right, trying to get me to change the date. I would have changed it had I been able to, but April had requested off for that entire weekend, so Friday was really the only day I could get out to do anything. I wasn't only planning it around my own schedule it just really was the only time i could do anything.
But once stuff cleared up, I said 'fuck it, who cares if they all can't go, at least I can see my friends' and decided to see who all was still even interested in going. The whole 'shes doing it for me' wasn't mean to sound nearly as ignorant as it did. I was just trying to explain that since I had canceled mine, you were picking it up for me, not as a favor, but like as in you were the one taking over. Cause yea, you have the BEST fucking Halloween parties. You always did. I miss them.

Gah, I gotta stop before this gets too long and I start rambling again.

[lildemisa]

yeah we were both being bitches lol. i'm just so glad everything worked out okay <3.

yeah i really REALLY REALLY miss my parties. i just cant really have them anymore which super sucks. i'm kinda hoping if me and patrick can stay together and if his mom does move out i can talk him into letting me use his house even if it is suuuuper tiny it would be so much damn fun.