quick con update
i dont wanna rant too long cause i really wanna watch sucker punch tonight and i need a shower and it's already fuckin 3 am...so grump. maybe i'll be gross one more night and bathe when i get up...that sounds like a soild plan CAUSE I WANNA SEE THIS DAMN MOVIE. i dont even care if it sucks compete ass at this point i've been trying to see it forever and SHIT KEEPS GETTING IN THE WAY!!
really it's will fault. he told me he would take me to see it then like never got back to me. prick. well doesnt matter...ON TO CON
OMFG CON CON CON CON CON CON
lol i had so much fun. i have never even come close to having that much fun at anything. not to mention i got like over $200 worth of stuff because my bf is..well..stupid? lol no thats mean not stupid just over giving. i shouldnt have asked for the dress. i really really shouldnt have. i wasnt goina ask for anything at all but i did find some cute cheap things i had asked for. then on the last day he was buying MORE VIDEO GAMES and i dunno...i broke. that lil voice in my head poped up "he told you you can get things. you know he WILL buy it." and the whole ask for anything most likely you will get it thing is still new and exciteing. still...i felt bad like RIGHT away. it's beautful though. it would look 1,000 times better if i had a FUCKING TORSO!! but eh, cant have everything right? i just couldnt belive they even had dresses like that in an x large. it's really rare to find large and she had up to 3x. i should have looked around at them a bit more, tried on a few, tried to find the best one but i was kinda...i dunno. just over excited i guess. i never thought i'd be able to say...hey i want WAY OVER PRICED item. yes? and the answer is yes lol.
not like that will ever happen again anyhow. it feels too werid....well maybe at cons. i guess the reason i broke down and asked for somthing that pricey was he had spent like...1,000 bucks on game shit lol...well okay not that much but...well damn he got pretty close to spending that much. my dress didnt seem like that big of a deal compared to all that stuff.
oh and we kinda had our first fight fight. we've had lil mishaps when were drunk but i can really count them cause well...we were drunk. i wanted to spend the night at a hotel on the way home so we could have some alone time and i wouldnt feel like a whore. we kept going back and forth and back and forth. finally i agreed to go home after...said alone time lol...but it was still werid. he was way over tired and i was honsetly pissed off we didnt stay. of course i couldnt say...yeah i am pretty mad about this because then the back and forth would never fucking end.
i dont mind backing down on it because of all he does for me but of all the thing to HAVE to back down on it kinda hurts. i also COMPETELY understand his side so it's hard to be mad at him personally, which really i never was. still...i really really really didnt wanna wake up in his house. maybe if we had stayed last time it wouldnt have been SUCH a big deal but yeah. totes feel like a slut. and yeah yeah i know thats silly but it make you feel used, even if you are still wakeing up next to the person just in a differnt place....but maybe this is all just my weirdness. i dunno.
i did learn some very intresting things from it.
1: my best acting skills dont really fool him. with ed i could make it belive i really was okay with something when i wasnt. he didnt seem to ever buy it. which is good right? i mean could cause issues but at the heart of it it's pretty cool he can see though acts like that.
2: noticed i do weird things when i'm worried/nervus. i did tell him i have a habit of doing werid lil things BUT he noticed me doing it and called me on it. again...i think thats good.
3: we are both stubborn as FUCK. this could be an issue lol. not 100% what to do with that info yet.
well i said it was goina be short and already it isnt and i didnt say half i wanted to. so i'm just goina stop...now to smoke and watch my shitty movie.
really it's will fault. he told me he would take me to see it then like never got back to me. prick. well doesnt matter...ON TO CON
OMFG CON CON CON CON CON CON
lol i had so much fun. i have never even come close to having that much fun at anything. not to mention i got like over $200 worth of stuff because my bf is..well..stupid? lol no thats mean not stupid just over giving. i shouldnt have asked for the dress. i really really shouldnt have. i wasnt goina ask for anything at all but i did find some cute cheap things i had asked for. then on the last day he was buying MORE VIDEO GAMES and i dunno...i broke. that lil voice in my head poped up "he told you you can get things. you know he WILL buy it." and the whole ask for anything most likely you will get it thing is still new and exciteing. still...i felt bad like RIGHT away. it's beautful though. it would look 1,000 times better if i had a FUCKING TORSO!! but eh, cant have everything right? i just couldnt belive they even had dresses like that in an x large. it's really rare to find large and she had up to 3x. i should have looked around at them a bit more, tried on a few, tried to find the best one but i was kinda...i dunno. just over excited i guess. i never thought i'd be able to say...hey i want WAY OVER PRICED item. yes? and the answer is yes lol.
not like that will ever happen again anyhow. it feels too werid....well maybe at cons. i guess the reason i broke down and asked for somthing that pricey was he had spent like...1,000 bucks on game shit lol...well okay not that much but...well damn he got pretty close to spending that much. my dress didnt seem like that big of a deal compared to all that stuff.
oh and we kinda had our first fight fight. we've had lil mishaps when were drunk but i can really count them cause well...we were drunk. i wanted to spend the night at a hotel on the way home so we could have some alone time and i wouldnt feel like a whore. we kept going back and forth and back and forth. finally i agreed to go home after...said alone time lol...but it was still werid. he was way over tired and i was honsetly pissed off we didnt stay. of course i couldnt say...yeah i am pretty mad about this because then the back and forth would never fucking end.
i dont mind backing down on it because of all he does for me but of all the thing to HAVE to back down on it kinda hurts. i also COMPETELY understand his side so it's hard to be mad at him personally, which really i never was. still...i really really really didnt wanna wake up in his house. maybe if we had stayed last time it wouldnt have been SUCH a big deal but yeah. totes feel like a slut. and yeah yeah i know thats silly but it make you feel used, even if you are still wakeing up next to the person just in a differnt place....but maybe this is all just my weirdness. i dunno.
i did learn some very intresting things from it.
1: my best acting skills dont really fool him. with ed i could make it belive i really was okay with something when i wasnt. he didnt seem to ever buy it. which is good right? i mean could cause issues but at the heart of it it's pretty cool he can see though acts like that.
2: noticed i do weird things when i'm worried/nervus. i did tell him i have a habit of doing werid lil things BUT he noticed me doing it and called me on it. again...i think thats good.
3: we are both stubborn as FUCK. this could be an issue lol. not 100% what to do with that info yet.
well i said it was goina be short and already it isnt and i didnt say half i wanted to. so i'm just goina stop...now to smoke and watch my shitty movie.