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devestaed... hurt... sad... depressed those adjetives barely describe whati feel right now. Samantha Berbert the girl i have always been waiting for broke up with me.... ouch. i cried sooo much i don't think i have ever cried so much. she means the world to me and i am in love with her... but she has some issues she has to take care of that doesn't allow her to be ready for committment. She loves me but is afraid of what will happen cause her past boyfreinds are fucktards... they hurt her sooo badly that she can't even trust a obviously trust worthy person as myself with her emotions and love.... fuck them..... i am not spossed to hate anyone but her past boyfreinds GOd will have to help me with because heaven forbid if i ever met them..... i don't know if i would still be a free man lets just put it that way... i might get thrown in jail for what i want to do to those guys..... i have never felt so much hate.... i am a very forgiving person but that is when it pertains to me, if u hurt me i can forgive u but u hurt the woman i love and we have problems.
i have much hope though that she will realize that we are the perfect couple and that i am a trustworthy guy.... feel free to leave credintials... i will use all the help i can get.... i have never loved a girl so mcuh.... when all this happened i was and still am more concerned about how this is hurting her than myself.... that is true love. but i have to wait for her to figure things out... she told me to find another girl that i should wait on her but how can i not ... people that know me know that i don't just date to date... and anyother girl would seem like nothing compared to samantha... i had no idea how much love could suck...
well there is one positive.... at least i understand all those songs on the radio now.
leave me some love.... goodness do i need it.
oh and i forgot one adjetive that describes how i feel... hopeful!
i have much hope though that she will realize that we are the perfect couple and that i am a trustworthy guy.... feel free to leave credintials... i will use all the help i can get.... i have never loved a girl so mcuh.... when all this happened i was and still am more concerned about how this is hurting her than myself.... that is true love. but i have to wait for her to figure things out... she told me to find another girl that i should wait on her but how can i not ... people that know me know that i don't just date to date... and anyother girl would seem like nothing compared to samantha... i had no idea how much love could suck...
well there is one positive.... at least i understand all those songs on the radio now.
leave me some love.... goodness do i need it.
oh and i forgot one adjetive that describes how i feel... hopeful!