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hey i guess that i should write alittle just to waste alittle time before i gotta go to bed.. well so at least i will get tired enough to go to bed. i hate bein awake when i know that i should be sleepin.
well the thing goin on in my life right now is that i am back workin at BERSERK. and i like it.. its fun bein there and i think that i slightly missed it ;) but it is fun. but i don't know how long that i can be there, i think that my ssi is goin to be takin away cuz i have a job. and i need that money. but i just know that its goin to be taken away cuz its the government and the government is Fucked up like that. and it sucks but i guess that i gotta deal with that. FUCK.. but i know that everything will be alright. i'm thinkin either tryin for some more hours at quality or findin another job in the day a more full time job so that if i do lose that money that i will be ok cuz i have another job. i don't know what i am goin to do. but i also gotta wait and find out what happens.. i think that nicest that could happen is they could just give me like half or even less than what i am gettin now.. i also shouldn't Stress on that .. i don't want to Right now.. i want to STRESS about goin under the knife (which i Still Don't know when) cuz if i stress about the money and the surgery i know that i will be a wreck. I honestly TRY not to think about it AT ALL. hate the thought on the healin part and the pain with the healin . i can handle it.. but HATE IT SOOO BAD. so everyone has to visit me because i hate it sooo bad, and it is SOO COOL WHEN PEOPLE CARE ENOUGH TO SEE VISIT. i know that my friends will i just know that i will love it when they do..
:( tonight my sister's inlaws wanted me and my bro go out to SLC and have dinner together. and i couln't go cuz of work :( i miss my sister. i hope that i don't lose touch with her at all. i guess thats what happens when u grow up but i miss her already and she hasn't been married that long. i wish i would have been able to go with her. i should plan a dinner with her this weekend or a little hang out thing.. hopefully it will happen. :)
i don't know if my father has even gotten my letter yet.. he said that he hasn't yet and i sent it along time ago. damnit.
well i'm finally gettin tired i gotta go. talk later.. Luv ya.
Oh got the New D12...LOVE IT !!!!!!...AS MUCH AS I LOVE THE FIRST D12!!!!!!!!!. WHICH IS ALOT OF LOOOOVVE!!!!!!!.. everyone should to listen to it. i won't burn it but i'll let u listen to it.. ;)
well the thing goin on in my life right now is that i am back workin at BERSERK. and i like it.. its fun bein there and i think that i slightly missed it ;) but it is fun. but i don't know how long that i can be there, i think that my ssi is goin to be takin away cuz i have a job. and i need that money. but i just know that its goin to be taken away cuz its the government and the government is Fucked up like that. and it sucks but i guess that i gotta deal with that. FUCK.. but i know that everything will be alright. i'm thinkin either tryin for some more hours at quality or findin another job in the day a more full time job so that if i do lose that money that i will be ok cuz i have another job. i don't know what i am goin to do. but i also gotta wait and find out what happens.. i think that nicest that could happen is they could just give me like half or even less than what i am gettin now.. i also shouldn't Stress on that .. i don't want to Right now.. i want to STRESS about goin under the knife (which i Still Don't know when) cuz if i stress about the money and the surgery i know that i will be a wreck. I honestly TRY not to think about it AT ALL. hate the thought on the healin part and the pain with the healin . i can handle it.. but HATE IT SOOO BAD. so everyone has to visit me because i hate it sooo bad, and it is SOO COOL WHEN PEOPLE CARE ENOUGH TO SEE VISIT. i know that my friends will i just know that i will love it when they do..
:( tonight my sister's inlaws wanted me and my bro go out to SLC and have dinner together. and i couln't go cuz of work :( i miss my sister. i hope that i don't lose touch with her at all. i guess thats what happens when u grow up but i miss her already and she hasn't been married that long. i wish i would have been able to go with her. i should plan a dinner with her this weekend or a little hang out thing.. hopefully it will happen. :)
i don't know if my father has even gotten my letter yet.. he said that he hasn't yet and i sent it along time ago. damnit.
well i'm finally gettin tired i gotta go. talk later.. Luv ya.
Oh got the New D12...LOVE IT !!!!!!...AS MUCH AS I LOVE THE FIRST D12!!!!!!!!!. WHICH IS ALOT OF LOOOOVVE!!!!!!!.. everyone should to listen to it. i won't burn it but i'll let u listen to it.. ;)