It's been awhile..
well i'm almost 100% certain that the livejournal craze has completely come to an end. Isn't it weird how things can change just like that? I remember when i used to come online just to check everyone's posts and shit like everyday and now its completely switched to myspace. Its almost to cliche.
Here's another thing thats really weird... how much EVERYTHING has changed. not even just livejournal.
i'm going to start writing in this again because i forgot how it almost calms you down in a sense.. i donno maybe getting my thoughts out to the fucking world will help.
im giving this a shot then maybe making it friends only because im not sure how i feel about everyone reading itttt.
This summer has been pretty shuweet, but also very emotional for ALL of my friends and i. BEcause last time at this summer i have to say i had the most perfect life that anyone could ever ask for. Andddd now a year later everything has completely turned upside down. I hate to say it, but i miss the way things used to be.. it was almost so easy. And now i dont even know. I don't know anything anymore.. all the things i used to be so sure of are completely gone. I have no more comfort zones, i have nothing to fall back on. Nothing is like it used to be.
I really truly want to enjoy my senior year but i feel like I'm holding myself back. what am i even saying right now????????
i keep searching for things that aren't even there. And that's what my problem is.
It's time to see things for what they truly are.
The faster i accept the change, the quicker i'll be alright again.
it just sucks......because i really did trust you, and believe you, when you said forever. ((my bad))
Here's another thing thats really weird... how much EVERYTHING has changed. not even just livejournal.
i'm going to start writing in this again because i forgot how it almost calms you down in a sense.. i donno maybe getting my thoughts out to the fucking world will help.
im giving this a shot then maybe making it friends only because im not sure how i feel about everyone reading itttt.
This summer has been pretty shuweet, but also very emotional for ALL of my friends and i. BEcause last time at this summer i have to say i had the most perfect life that anyone could ever ask for. Andddd now a year later everything has completely turned upside down. I hate to say it, but i miss the way things used to be.. it was almost so easy. And now i dont even know. I don't know anything anymore.. all the things i used to be so sure of are completely gone. I have no more comfort zones, i have nothing to fall back on. Nothing is like it used to be.
I really truly want to enjoy my senior year but i feel like I'm holding myself back. what am i even saying right now????????
i keep searching for things that aren't even there. And that's what my problem is.
It's time to see things for what they truly are.
The faster i accept the change, the quicker i'll be alright again.
it just sucks......because i really did trust you, and believe you, when you said forever. ((my bad))